Why I am going to HELL....and what did YOU do?!?!

by oompa 11 Replies latest jw friends

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  oompa

  Anonymity is a good thing. I have never told anyone this and it bothered me really bad for a long time. Leading a double life at an early age as a JW probably is an indication that you are really not going to buy into the program. Even though I was actually 19 when I started doubting and asking serious questions, my departure probably started in 5th grade. I was in love...yep....true love. Karen was tall, beautiful and had long straight brown hair and if that wasn't enough, she had an identical twin!! You should have seen them as Seniors....good God. We were in band class together, and while some kids say they hated school I always loved it...even taking summer band, not just to be with Karen, but probably had already figured out school was a good place to really be me. Sometimes I put my hand over my heart during the Pledge. I gave valentine cards I made.

  Anyway, while in 5th grade, this super nice sister was visiting my mom. It was winter and the sister had worn a long, heavy, black wool coat. It was put on my bed. There was a sparkly broach on the lapel. I took it. I found a small white gift box and put it in it. I gave it to Karen. I knew the sister was very wealthy. She would think it just fell off. I really liked that lady so much, and we even got pretty close as I got older, but I couldn't tell her. Now you know the rest of the story...........................what's yours?.............oompa
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  dinah

  Oompa,

  I can relate to leading a "double life". Part of me wanted to be a "good" witness, but the other part couldn't stand being the weird kid in school. Yes, I think it is definitely a sign that this life of being in the org just isnt your cup of tea. I just wanted to have a life, complete with normal friends.

  Probably the worst thing I did was start smoking---when I was 12! It was forbidden, it was my first rebellion.
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  coffee_black

  Sophmore year in High School. English class. We had a grammar workbook with daily quizes. It was always open book. Honor system. I looked ahead for the answers because once you finished it, you could spend the rest of class reading from a list of selected books. I couldn't wait to get to the reading. Read Crime & Punishment, 1984, Tale of Two Cities, and many others that year.

  I didn't get caught until the last semester. My teacher was very disappointed in me... I felt very guilty because he knew I was a jw and I was aftraid I had stumbled him.

  Coffee who still loves to read...and should be doing paperwork right now for my job instead of taking a break to see what's happening on jwd.
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  oompa

  Dinah: Probably the worst thing I did was start smoking---when I was 12!

  OMG you were like Korah bad....I will see you in HELL!
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  oompa

  Coffee_Black : Honor system. I looked ahead for the answers

  We did two time trials in typing class....I would blitz the first one and start on my second one while the first one was still going...getting a nice head start. Never got caught and got all A's in typing. I thought it was pretty clever.....oompa

  Oh BTW Coffee, I will see you in HELL and our coffee will stay hot!
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  avidbiblereader

  We have all done things of which we regret, sad to say my list is longer than most, not a real good person growing up, rebellious to an unbelievable degree from age 11-18, looking for God's mercy and trying to practice more of it myself

  If we are not fit to judge others, we are obviously not fit to judge ourselves either, not fit to judge anyone, our duty is to learn from our mistakes and not practice what we know is wrong.

  abr
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  Vernon Williams

  O,

  In your first post you said we "know the rest of the stroy..."

  NO, we do not....

  So, what happened to/with "Karen?"

  V
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  tula

  There was a sparkly broach on the lapel. I took it. I found a small white gift box and put it in it. I gave it to Karen.

  That's pretty bad, oompa.

  Did you know that you caused that sister to doubt her own mind?

  She became very upset and wondered how she could have lost it and wondered if she misplaced it.

  She became so paranoid that she wondered if senility was setting in at an early age. She visited numerous doctors after that looking to see if her mental failings could be genetic.

  Several in the family had alzheimers and it frightened her terribly that she was headed that way. She thought loosing track of things is how it starts.

  The loss of that sentimenal brooch...which had been passed down from her favorite aunt also caused her to become obsessive/compulsive. She was always double and triple checking everything like to make sure she had locked the doors, or turned off the iron. She was nuts later on in life. And it all began with that day...when she lost the brooch. When she wears jewelry now, everytime she moves, or gets up, she pulls at her ears to see if her earrings are still there.

  She has now become very neurotic and blames the gremlins. (not too far off the bat, looking at you)

  Even though she is a JW she has sought the help of priests to exercise her house of the gremlins. An old voodoo woman came in last week to throw salt in all the corners of her house to scare off the haints.

  She is nuts now. You never realize how much damage just a small sin like that can cause.

  Wealthy you say? She lost all her wealth over the next few years paying for doctors and meds for her imagined diminished mental capacity.

  Now, go wear some scratchy wool clothes in summer and do penance!
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  AWAKE&WATCHING

  When I was a child reading was my way to escape an abusive alcoholic father. I would also escape to the library whenever I could and spend hours there. I loved books. Sometimes I would go into the Catholic Church I attended and pray.

  One afternoon I was just sitting in the pew looking around at all the statues and idols and decided to snoop around.

  I ended up in the priest's office. I found a book that I wanted to read and I stole it. From a church for God's sake. I never confessed this until now.

  How many Hail Mary's should I say?
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  oompa

  AWAKEWATCHER: I ended up in the priest's office. I found a book that I wanted to read and I stole it. From a church for God's sake.

  All of a sudden I feel a LOT better A&W! You will speed past me on the way to Hell.

  Tula, holy cow ease your mind. This lady was fine, always happy, sane and stayed rich. But you are going to Hell for laying on the guilt.

  Vernon you are going to Hell for wanting to hear my dirty stories about Karen.