Studying To Save Lives Again!

by KnowlegeSeeker_UK 35 Replies latest jw friends

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  tooktheredpill

  But saying all this, I feel scared , I feel lonely.

  KnowlegeSeeker:

  I understand perfectly how you feel. I'm still an Elder "in good standing" in the congregation. All that I know, my family, friends...JW. All my life I've been a Witness. Not even my wife knows that I have doubts, or that I don't believe anymore in the organization. I'm still inside only because of them. I love them with all my heart. And I'm scared too. Scared of loosing them.

  I try to focus in the few positive aspects of being a JW, and how that can help me to improve myself. I like to help people too, and that is something that I really enjoy. I make "wordly" friends very easily, and I've known very very good people outside the organization.

  As JW, we are not afraid of "cold calling" on people. Think about this: If we are capable of "selling" a Watchtower magazine to a person that we don't know, and that's not really interested in it, we can be the best salesman/saleswoman in the world! As you mentioned, we have the ability to speak well before a class, without problems. We can convince people. Use that in your favor!

  In my case, I'm working in the healthcare field too, and recently I finished my BS degree, studying online during the nights. Most of the people in the KH doesn't know it. I've accomplished a lot of things, but I can't share my hapiness with everyone...

  I'm having a difficult time dealing with these issues, but I still think that God exists, that he loves us all, and that I still have the need of knowing him, without "filters".

  And reading the posts of so many people that are feeling like me has helped me a lot during all these months.

  Just write back here if you need to "vent".
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  Metamorphosis

  2. "no jeans or t-shirts in the evenings after a district assembly was an easy target."...This is the second time I have seen this info....where did it come from? is it in print? was it just announced at at dc? what the hey?

  oompa - it was in the KM before this summer's district Convention - the normal pullout sometime around Feb/March about not saving seats, bringing food and not leaving the convention - and they added in that it would be disrespectful to change into jeans when you went out to eat afterwords. i sat there in disbelief the first time i read it - like where the hell do they get off trying to tell people what to wear after the convention...

  Morph
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  legalchickie

  Hi and Welcome,

  I have only been online for about 2 months and have only posted a couple of times. As they say, this will get easier. Just to find this web site was thrilling to me. I had truly felt as though I was all alone my decision to not return to the WT. I had been a JW for 26 years. I too have friends that are still in the organization but they no longer consider me to be their friend and I am worse than dead to my family (of course) because I have turned my back on the "truth." I still carry a great deal of guilt and it has been 8 years since I have been back.

  You are going into a profession that is truly noble and we all wish you the best. You will always find friends here.....
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  KnowlegeSeeker_UK

  Your all very kind thankyou. believe me though oompa there is no cue of sisters..... lol . Youve got me worried now that i said too much. ill post every now n then. x thx
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  Dagney

  Greetings KS and welcome!

  Problem is it doesnt add up when you stand in the middle of it all. I read scriptures that were taken out of context, the FDS being one, a faithfull and discreet slave, its an obvious parable, no more a prophecy than the good samaritan. If you read the bible it reads as a book of amazing and intresting stories and accounts, not as laws and identifying glimpses of the future (unless stating they are). And in seeing all this reality bit...hard

  Well you hit it spot on for me...that was in essence exactly how the FDS lost it's power for me. It sort of broke my heart for a time, but I'm well over it. So much hoopla given to a phrase plucked out of an illustration...seems ridiculous to me now. Also reading the context surrounding Isa. 43:10 proved again the silliness of hooking on to a phrase and making it into something different than it's original intent.

  Again welcome, and congratulations on your efforts to save lives in real time. This is a rough time, but many of us are living proof there is a wonderful life waiting for you. It may be bittersweet, but it can still be wonderful!

  D
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  Aleman

  Dear KnowlegeSeeker_UK,

  Hello and welcome to the forum. I have a question, what is this Rand Cam cover-up? and the FDS? I only wish to know.

  Thanx,

  -Aleman
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  oompa

  KnowSeekUK: Youve got me worried now that i said too much.

  That was the intent if you want to remain just faded..Just change a few things when you post, but post often. Your experience could be an excepionally good aid...oompa,
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  LisaRose

  Congratulations on coming as far as you have, it must have been a hard road. You have developed great critical thinking skills. Your decision to study medicine is a great choice. You will help more people in one day as a doctor than you did in all your time as a JW. You may think you are old to be single and *gasp* a virgin. I'm 53 and have kids your age. You are still young and have your whole life ahead of you. You will make new friends as time goes on and you become more open to relationships with non-JW's. I married young, but didn't meet the love of my life until I was 45 and I've never been happier. You have developed some great skills and you will do well in life. Good luck!
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  The Oracle

  Welcome Welcome Welcome Knowledge Seeker!

  Loved your post, and I admire your path.

  You will find a great deal of support and very specific help when needed.

  Like an earlier poster, I am still serving as an elder as well, but have had my full awakening to the fact that this is not the truth.

  I am doing all I can from the inside to help innocent JWs to wake up and get out. The teachings and policies of the WT are too dangerous and hurtful. At the same time I am more than happy to advise any faders who need advice on how to avoid disfellowshipping, if that important to them.

  We are here to help in any way we can!

  And by the way - it is always great to hear about JWs who have had their awakening. Like a good report from a distant land - it refreshes the soul.

  Peace to you!

  The Oracle
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  Maddie

  Welcome to the forum Knowledge Seeker

  It is great to have you with and many of us have felt as you do now. I am still coming to terms with everything, it's such a big upheaval but you have us to support you.

  Maddie