When I first came to this board, I was mesmerized at the knowledge. People had ideas and thoughts and voiced them and did it quite well.
I was a witness, I hardly read more than a paragraph at a time.....stopped, answered a planned out question in the paragraph, highlighted and went on.
Formulating my own thoughts was one thing, but getting them typed out was another.
I saw all sorts of opionions thrown out there, debates, bantering back and forth........I was impressed to say the least and yes, intimidated.
Them there posters had some balls and I wanted some too.
I was careful not to post things too controversial as to not make waves........I got my feelings hurt alot, said I was never going to post again, went stomping off. Licked my wounds did some soul searching and came back. I thought there were some real asses on the board and I did not particulary like what they said, but for the most part what I was getting was good for my healing.
I learned by observation. Like testing to see if the water is the right temperature, I tested out my thoughts little by little on the board. I really had to learn how to THINK!!!!!
There are lots of threads I never read. Some I read and never post on, some I post on and should have read a bit better. Researched more, thought more, or not thought so much.
We are learning here, all together. Its not goign to be perfect. We are a screwed up bunch of people trying to make sense out of something that happened in our lives that was senseless.
Some of us are thinking for the first times in our lives, some are feeling .......feeling anger ......some are having fun .....first time, going through all sorts of emotional stuff
Sometimes we get tender love and affection and sometimes we don't.
Its the real world on the internet..........its the real world.
People are not going to smile in your face and pat you on the back here and say crap behind your back....They are going to speak whats on their mind. At the KH thats what we got fake stuff or nothing at all.
purps