you seem to be assuming some things here, so let me set the record straight...
I have, infact discussed some of my findings with those closest to me...recently with my mom She smiled sweetly and said "yes, I do know who Elijah is." and she was the one who comforted me when I was ages 3-9 and fit to be tied. I guess I used to be terrorized by "little men" that she couldn't see. She is also the one that took it with a grain of salt when, at the age of 21/2, I started to declaire that she wasn't my real mom because I remembered my real mom was an angel and she was blonde. (I was seldom exposed to any religion while growing up except for the few times that we went to church)
I talked with my boyfriend and his friend together once and the friend didn't ridicule me but chose to say nothing...he always asks what is happening on "the" forum. My boyfriend always has always looked at me with distain when he sees me reading my Bible or anything vaguely religious...he cant stand the fact that I come on to the forum and since I told him my findings, he reacts with outright hostility if I even mention God.
One other friend of my boyfriend, who wasn't told anything, seems to be my greatest ally...he is kind hearted and without fail, encourages my forum participation and study!
love michelle
p.s. I haven't been ranting and raving like a lunatic on this side of the screen, even when some texts that I write out would seem to indicate the opposite I'm soooo normal.
...btw...deconverting or deprogramming. From where I stand, that would be going from the light into the dark, from life to death, I'm sure even you can understand why that just doesn't seem appealing. xoxo