Hello,
I am very new to the site and I'm sure there is a learning curve, so please bear with me. I have looked around a little and find the site very interesting and encouraging so far. It is heartwarming to meet other people with questions or experiences who can relate them without needing to hide behind blatant negativity or automatic judgemental attitudes.
A little info on me (also see my bio on my profile) - I had been fading out over the past decade, but recently hit a "CoC" which was the breaking point. I am lucky (a word I was never allowed to use, "must say fortunate instead") enough to be walking this road with my love for God much stronger, my marriage to my JW sweetheart still intact, my children adjusting well (so far) to the changes we are making, a father & sister who walked this road years before me, and many friends, especially CCS (most of whom I would have previously judged unfit and missed out on) who have all been so supportive as I put the pieces of my new true self together.
2007 was the most painful, yet blessed year of my life. This new year will no doubt also be a rocky one, as not all of my family and none of my in-laws (long-time JW zealots, one and all) are aware of the changes we have made. I am growing tired of the weight of what now seems like a worthless farce, in order to maintain family connections. However, my husband is (rightly) concerned about losing his elderly, ill mother. And, I would hate for my actions/words, or desire to be free of this weight, to cause him or our children pain.
I'm sure I will be looking here for a little "light" on those future rocky days and hope that I too can add something of value to someone else.
Yomomma