I do not believe this is a bad place you are in - it is a wonderful place, place where your eyes are opening, just like a newborn baby!
You are starting to question all that you have been told and blindly followed. You are becoming your own person. It is sometimes shocking when that lighbulb flashes on, but don't get depressed over it! Rejoice! For you are now finding the truth!!
Enjoy your journey of discovery. Embrace it and grow.