This is all too surreal. What are you doing?..Where are you at..RIGHT NOW? (page 2)

BONEZZ

Outlaw...Is that from the gospel of Deputy Dawg?

-BONEZZ

anewme...I forgto to mention that you are very correct in that the dubbies only want to hear that "we" are doing poorly, thereby showing we have lost the big guys support...and the fact that your life is going good is only due to the support you get from De Debil! You can't win with the dubs.

-BONEZZ

troubled mind

Been there felt like that ....it wasn't in Starbucks though . Many years ago when my kids were very small, there was a time when I felt all the negative energy in the world had settled on me .

One sleepless night I couldn't take it any more I felt I had no one to talk to, and there was no one that could understand the pain I was in . I went to the kitchen took a knife and headed out the door walking down a country road towards the woods . I cried and screamed as I walked the empty road wishing someone would save me . I reached a small river and sat down beside the water . I started having a very serious discussion with myself as I held the blade to my wrist . I argued to just do it get it over with ....but then I kept thinking of my kids asleep in their beds , and what it would be like for them tomorrow when they woke up without their mother . The argument went on to whether that would be better for them or not . I just couldn't do it . I walked back home and got back into bed ,my husband had never even noticed I had been gone . Ater that I had strong urges to slam my car into a tree just to make my mind stop thinking .I finally realized I needed medical help .I never told the doctor what I had done only that I had terrible thoughts .So I took prozac and xanax for a few yrs. It started to help after a month or so gradual, then one day I noticed the world had color again .That was an amazing day to wake up and feel ...happy I was alive .

I still get bouts of mild depression but never as severe as that had been . Where am I at right now ?.......Hanging in there just like everyone else .

Sparkplug

from the gospel of Deputy Dawg

I kind of like that phrase!

compound complex

Dear BONEZZ,

Well, I guess I'm here at the moment and glad of it.

If I hadn't read about Starbuck's new move and randomly clicked onto your thread (as explained in my new thread on coffee for a dollar), we couldn't commiserate. As described above by our fellow-posters, we've all shared like experiences: abandonment, betrayal, loss of personal fortunes, etc. But JWD and assorted other blessings have come to the rescue.

Please stay on board. You'll pull through. I never thought one such as I would survive, but reports of my demise, as you might guess, were exaggerated.

All the best,

CoCo

anewme

That was a good post Troubled Mind.

OUTLAW

Bonezz..Thats Mutley..LOL!!.....So many people go through a bad time when they walk away from the WBT$..It`s normal......But..The truth is..It gets better.....Just put one foot in front of the other and try to get along the best you can....................... Clint Eastwood ...OUTLAW

wanderlustguy

At the moment I am under the electric blanket eating a cinnamon roll (from the oven) and drinking strong coffee, reading here. I am at my home...and no I'm not telling you where it is, and no, you can't come over, and NO YOU CANNOT HAVE A CINNAMON ROLL.

BONEZZ

TMind...glad you are still with us. I know what you are saying about the kids and how they would feel. It is like the color in the world has been turned off.

CoCo...thank you...it was a fleeting moment...all too freaky but I'm over it.

Outlaw...I forgot that his name was Mutley..he was DD's sidekick right?...with the raspy laugh? Things are better and hopefully improving. When I first left i went thru hell...saw a therapist...took the meds...and suffered greatly. These moments are farther bewtween now...thank Dawg!

-BONEZZ

journey-on

Many years ago, I had the world crash down on me. It was the best thing that could have happened to me at the time,

but I didn't realize this until many many years later. I've come to look at life like a structure we're building. Sometimes,

you step back and realize (either consciously or subconsciously) that something you built was faulty or just not working.

You have to tear it down and remodel. That is messy and painful sometimes, but when you begin the rebuild and continue

building on top of that, everything begins to fall into place.

This is all too surreal. What are you doing?..Where are you at..RIGHT NOW?

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