This is who really I am

MrMoe

I have had several people on this board request that I show the softer side of who I am as a person -- as well as share my feelings in regards to the divorce my husband and I are about to go through. I have used the forum (past tense) as an outlet for stress. And through correspondence with many of you, I think it is time to show the softer side of me.

Our mutual choice to end our relationship has caused me to retreat within myself as a person and reflect upon my life.

In life, we have 2 paths. To live our lives for ourselves or live our lives for others. If you choose to live your life for yourself and discover who you are inside, your world will be open to boundless opportunities. If you live your life for others, you will not be truly happy or fulfilled. Find fulfillment within yourself.

Now I will share something personal - a few things I told my husband. Despite how much he has hurt me, I find no reason to be bitter. Out of all of this, I hope to help him grow.

I told him that I think out of all of this, we both may have learned a major lesson in life. I have no regrets and I would have married him all over again -- even if I knew what the future held. No matter what, I will always have faith in him as a person. I asked him to take some personal time for himself to do major soul searching and rediscover who he is and who he will become. I feel like who I was when we met, only now I have the gift of insight into life that I would have never had unless I had met him. I have learned one of the most beautiful things in life next to love is freedom. Freedom to make our own personal choices and live our lives the way we wish to live them. When we met, I was sure I found my soul mate in him, and perhaps in a sense he still is.

I think I met my husband for a reason. I believe all things happen for a reason. Call it fate or call it chance, but everything we do has an impact on our lives and the lives of others. I do not have regrets, I cherish every memory as a learning experience.

At the end, I told my husband that if he ever needed me, I will be here. Out of all of this the only thing I want is for both of us to be happy. A part of me will always love him, unconditionally. I know he will, too.

ashitaka

Moe....

{ashi tips hat}

openminded

thanks for sharing Moe -OM

joelbear

Hi Moe,

I am very sorry you are going through a hard time. I didn't realize this was happening in your life. I hope for you peace and happiness.

I think the real path we all seek is a balance between living our lives for ourselves and living our lives for others. Actually each of those two paths would be easier to walk since we really wouldn't have to make any hard decisions. The trick is in finding the balance between the two and that is where I think true life satisfaction is accomplished.

PS

I haven't found it yet.

hugs

JOel

HoChiMin

Hey Moe,

We're in the same boat. When did you buy your ticket?

HCM

SixofNine

I think you have many feeling yet to feel and many thoughts yet to think. I also think that your post indicates you intend to make the best of a bad situation, that your love was real; is real, but changed. Some things are unattainable, untenable. It doesn't make you a quiter to come to that conclusion.

Nathan Natas

You are a beautiful, good and strong person, MrMoe. I am honored to share your company in this virtual world.

Xena

MrMoe you have not only shown your softer side...but what a wonderful generous special person you are! I am glad to know you and hope to get to know you better in the future!

ShaunaC

Moe, that was beautiful! I can see your tears. Or are they my own as I read it. When I left the Borg 3 years ago I also left my husband of 6 1/2 years. I was 24 and wanted to, for the first time in my life, live for me! Despite whatever pain I've endured, I am so happy to say that I have learned so much about myself that I would never have had the opportunity to have unless these steps were taken. You will learn a great deal about your own strengths and weaknesses. But in the end you will be such a better person for it. And he will too if he also opens himself up to this self discovery.

My thoughts are with you. I wish you all the best!

Shauna

MegaDude

Moe,

Good for you. Your attitude will help you heal faster and move on quicker, and your life will be happier. I ultimately came to the same conclusion you did with my ex-wife, and also my JW relatives.

"The God that comes before skepticism may bear little resemblence to the God that comes after."
(M. Scott Peck: The Road Less Traveled)

This is who really I am

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