Momz, I hear where your coming from. Let your journey begin.
Our situation as ex jw's and making it to this board reminds me of what I heard at an AA meeting back in the 80's after escaping the tower. AA will Fuxx your drinking up. You will never be able to drink the same again. And that was true.
Escaping the tower screws up your child like innocense of beliving in the God of the bible.
They say you cant ever go home.
Few can stay children forever, life is too demanding.
Weve reached the point in our spiritual journey, where our former beliefs are like a stretched out pair of underwear with the elastic wore out. There never going to fit again.
Ignorance is bliss and knowledge knowledge is torment.
Our you can take your knowledge and power yourself out of the Wactower