Well, I did it.
It's official and I'm relieved.
The elders wanted to try talking to me once again, but after awhile it was obvious that they were only interested in changing my thoughts not answering any questions. So, I just calmly asked if I could disassociate myself. They acted stunned and they got tears in their eyes, but I told them that I had already grieved and was ready to move on with life. There was a lot more said, but I'm exhausted just thinking about it.
I even told my mom who thinks I just need to get my life organized so that I can have more time to study and get back to serving Jah soon. At least she didn't act like she'd shun me.
Thanks for the support, information and honest feelings/stories on this forum. It's been a tremendous aid for my leaving the cult.
I'm sort of feeling exhausted and blue, but I think I'll celebrate with some wine and a good movie tonight.
Cheers,
Anne