Oh Lordy
I did this a few years ago, we were just inactive but we still really wanted to believe it was the truth.I thought that my problems were just with the local Elders and the GB were golden. Basically we were still living as JWs even though we weren't doing anything about it. It was lonely and life threw a lot of problems at us and we went back.
BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE
To make a very long story shorter, we went from a family that was inactive but intact to a divided family that is like living in a war zone at times. My daughters don't want anything to do with the JWs but my husband expects our 13 yo to go with him. She's trying to do a fade by saying she's sick or visiting someone when it's meeting time but it's really hard for her. My husband never goes in field service or to the book study but he is adamant about the other meetings. He also spread it around the family that I was going on apostate websites which I had not done yet. Figuring that since I was getting blamed for it , I might as well check out Freeminds and found way more than I expected. That's where I found JWD .
Now that I've written all this, maybe I needed all these experiences to finally get it in my head that it's not the truth. I'm not the problem, they are.