Im 19 and Im still going to meetings.Ive been sort of unhappy for a while.My older sister left the truth about 9 or 10 years ago.My brother was on her heels a couple of years later.Ive been told that they were weak,selfish,posessed and drug addicts.I knew this wasnt true,they were both brilliant and caring of me.I havent spoken to them in at least 3 years.Alot of gossip still circulates about them,especially Sarah.She intimidated everybody and I suppose this is how they feel superior.
Im rambling,sorry.Im just overwhelmed.I ran into Sarah at a Walmart and she was radiant.I chatted her ear off for an hour and she hugged me when I cried.I told her I wanted out,that I know something isnt right but I m so SCARED.She suggested some of teh online groups to help.I guess she went to Thomschat but thats not there anymore.She said my struggle would be different than hers because she never believed in the witnesses.I did.Any advice or books to read or whatever you suggest,I just want to learn.She said Crisis of Conscience would probably help.Okay thanks.