I have no animosity. I figured the Lord got me where I am today via a detour through the Society.
RR
What a wonderful attitude, getting on with life what's lost is lost. lol hope4others
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I have no animosity. I figured the Lord got me where I am today via a detour through the Society.
RR
What a wonderful attitude, getting on with life what's lost is lost. lol hope4others
Embarrassed. It's such a weird thing to have on your life resume. "I joined the Jehovah's Witnesses at age 22 and stayed in until I was 31."
I feel a lot of things,but very few of them any good.
I still cannot fully explain how I fell for the whole thing in the beginning, and then remained suckered-in for so long afterwards. (Embarrassment features strongly here!)
The only benefit that I came away with (flawed as it may be) is learning how to speak in public.
But ..... even that was a bloody expensive course in public speaking!
Jack.
As a 4th gen brainwashed from birth I feel:
BITTER
CHEATED
DEFRAUDED
MISLED
DEPRIVED
VIOLATED
CONTROLLED
DUPED
IMPRISONED
BRAINWASHED (did I say that?)
LIED TO
MISGUIDED
STILL TRAPPED (by family in)
Bitter...again....................oompa
I hear ya oompa. **sigh**
I know it wasn't all bad. But what matters is today and what you make it. I have worked hard on letting the past and current expectations go with regards to that time. So I don't like to think about it much. I'd rather think about everything I want to do now.
LIFES RENDEVOUS WITH LIARS!
Life skills such as public speaking could have been learned somewhere else.
I view it as a total waste of 2 decades. I cannot credit them with any of the good
that comes out of those 2 decades.
I met and fell in love with my wife. Sure I am thrilled to have such a great lady. But
she is still a dub, may stay a dub. Who's to say I am better off married to a dub?
My career is despite my dubbiness.
I am bitter and waste more time on JWD because of the bitterness.
If I were never a dub, I never would have met some great former dubs. There's a plus.
I cannot believe I did all that field circus and put so much effort into meeting parts and
such, sat for hours at the conventions, lived around the theocratic schedule.
Sometimes I wish I could go back in time to enjoy my teenage years a bit more.
Angry and wasteful. I was doing what I hated for so long that I had talked myself into loving it and practicing tough love on myself: angry determined to be good face.
Oompa,
I totally agree with you! Yes, it WAS all that bad. Just try being a 4th and convince some others that it was really really bad. They don't understand. Everyone in my entire life for generations were in and pressured me through talking about others spiritual failures to stay in and do more more more. I'm with ya. I'm a 4th and kids used to be 5th. Now the JW family are down to 3 generations and don't even know it. I'm faking it with them. I think that faking enjoying sex is so much easier that this. It's the PITS!