The thread started by Mr Moe http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/forum/thread.asp?id=15635&site=3 has occupied my thoughts for a considerable while today. Fortunately, I'm off sick, so have the luxury of some free time!
For some reason, that subject really got to me. Here's why, I think.
It is a fact that, while the world is better now than ever before, billions of people basically live a miserable life on this planet, before dying of starvation, disease, or war. Humanity is starting to deal with these problems, but realistically, there is a long way to go.
One of the best things about being a JW was the thought that all these lives were not wasted. The resurrection hope, in other words.
Even though all these people, each of whom had hopes, loved their families, felt all the feelings and emotions we do, and wanted to live in warmth and comfort and happiness as much as we do, even though they had wasted miserable lives, there was eternity for them in the new system.
I admit that that did provide me comfort and solace. It allowed me to turn the other cheek, as it were, to their suffering, and not feel bad about it. Sure I donated to charity, but did nothing to disturb my comfortable lifestyle to help these people out.
Now of course, I do not have that resurrection hope to salve my conscience. Now all those lives really are wasted, their only chance in this universe flushed down the toilet. Now when I really try to imagine myself in their situation, I perhaps just begin to understand their anger and frustration and despair at all us complacent Westerners, who go about our comparatively carefree lives with scarcely a thought of our suffering fellow humans.
And you know what? I give a bit more to charity than I did as a JW, but I still don't do anything to inconvenience my comfy life. So I suppose when I see images of those people suffering, it twinges my conscience.
I've been out a year, yet haven't really confronted this yet, obviously. All those people suffering, and now I have no excuse to hide behind.
Expatbrit