As ex-jw, well me an ex-study, it is confusing at the beginning. I felt as you but i quickly got a hold of myself and decided to read another translation of the Bible. I had been told many times that they changed the Bible but would not listen. This helped me tremendously because the jw had told me their Bible was the same but I found out 17 yrs later major differences. One of the main differences I discovered was that i really couldn't understand the scriptures in it because it is not in laymens terms! Then when i broke it down it is not the same. simular just dosen't cut it.
I was raised as a Baptist from 9 to 18. Then I remembered this and decided to go back to the God I knew. I don't feel like I ever left him but my relationship with him was very distant, especially with Jesus. I doubted throughout my studies but continued.
Once I decided to leave for good my whole world changed. I wondered if they were right but that quickly faded when i started searching the net. Then I came here.
Jw are not evil. I see them as the Pharassies. They make God's word burdensome. They also lean on their own understanding in some respects.
My advice to you is to read your Bible and pray for God's Holy Spirit to lead you. Sometimes you will feel like God is not there, and thats normal but you must keep pressing on. You cannot stop searching for God. His words are in the scriptures. He tells us all about him and his glorious Son! We don't know everything but you will see that as you study the word your answers will come. Sometimes I'll have a question and it is answered immmediately. Other times i meditate on his word and it comes. It use to freak me out but then i grew to accept God's wonderfulness.
There is no better way to live! Going to church is really important too.there you fellowship with people just like you who don't mind praying for you and helping each other out. Go where you feel comfortable and where you will hear the word for this builds faith as the Bible tells us.
Reconcile yourself to God. You probably won't hear him speak, i havent yet except through preachers, reading the word, you know not his audible voice yet.
The gospel tells us that we must believe that we must ask God to forgive us for our sins. This must be heartfelt and sincere. This is not some mindless thing. For we all have sinned and come short of the glory of God. We all know that we sin. We must also believe that Jesus died for our sins and was raised from the dead. We must ask God to accept us and to come into our lives and be Lord or ruler of us. We must also ask for the Holy Spirit to guide us in God's ways. Prayer is very important in our relationship with God.
We must not let anyone come between our relationship with God. Satan is our main advesary so we must pray to God to protect us from his evil deeds.
Being a christian is not an easy road becaue the world is always trying to make you loose the faith you have. When you feel like God is not there don't worry he is there. we all feel that way sometimes. He takes care of us as he sees fit and we must understand that. He knows what is best for us and what we need and when we need it. I live this life and I know its true.
Im not prefect but i try to serve God to the best of my ability. Put God first. Jw always say this but we know they put the wts first so thats where they make their mistake i think.
This is getting long and i'd love to say more so if you would like to hear more please feel free to ask.
