This should have been in there to help me work out problems of my "youth":
"If you've intellectually settled that "the Truth" is a crock of steaming bullshit, but you've got a few more years before you can get the F*ck out of the Kingdom Hell, should I go down in a blaze of glory, or wait it out and just wander away to freedom?"
Answer that works: While going down in a blaze of glory would be emotionally satisfying, as per our other advice, even if Gods people can't keep you forever, your participation as a liar, dutifully biting your tongue for purposes of supporting the delusions of your fellow brothers and sisters for as many years as you can or until you can get the F-out, is the next best thing to having a Borg drone for life. If you you can't give Jehovah your life, give him a few years of half-assed compliance, surely Jehovah will appreciate such contributions.