Dear AD, so happy you are having doubts about the organization. I know how you feel about the thought of losing your family and all your relatives. Every relative I have and family all expect three are all JWS on both sides of our family. I was a fourth generation witness.
I could kick myself in the ass every time I think of how more than half my life was given to the WTS. but I thought it was God until I began to realize the lies the GB were telling and or not telling us. It has been difficult to lose those you love. Even family that you may have not gotten along with, like me. There are certain members of my family I don't particularly concern myself with because even as a witness nothing I did was good enough. I was forever critized for not doing enough not getting out in the service regualarly and meetings. I was just to them a facade of a christian. Thank God they are not my judges and jury . I would have been dead along time ago.
I even pioneered and served in Quebec when the WTS needed help to increase the witnesses in that province I was there from 1970 - 1984. Then after that my nightmare with my family started all over again.
Because my family kept me under a microscope and it made me crazy until the day I said that is that I am leaving this religion lock stock and barrel. I even divorced my over zealous crazy husband, who didn't do anything anyway with my son and me. All his efforts were preach read, preach go to meetings, preach go in the service day and night and that is all he ever did. Even if he were sick he would make a big entrance so everyone one could see how faithful he was. What a farce and anyway he was only fooling himself as the elders knew he was not a nice man and was mean and cruel with words to myself and our son. Today my son has nothing to do with his father. The one great thing is my son never became a witness, he saw through thehypocrisy and my family's hyprocisy and wanted nothing what so ever to do with any of them. He even told them to leave my mother alone, what did you ever do for her. And he said that to my sisters and their husbands. He even used the F word with,
My parents became witnesses when my father sobered up in 1963 he was a violent fierce man who had no respect for himself our his family until the say the doctor told him sober up or your going to die, and I was a good girl going to church faithfully every weekend mostly alone (my parents did n't believe in anything and so they thought it was good that I wanted to go to church )then I started going to the Anglican church with my grandma by the year 63 rolled around. My world changed and I had no control over it , and even when I could have left I was locked into the fear factor. My dad was an elder and my mother was an elderette. I was fat and they hated me. they didn't even talk to me for several years. That is another story.
I surely don't miss any of it. I was married to a second man during the last nine years he was my guardian angel and now he is gone to be in a far grander place in the universe peaceful and in no more pain.
So I share your joy and also understand the pain that you will have to go through, but know that everyone of us here have been throw pretty much the same thing and are here for you whenever you need to chat or looking for answers.
It will be nice to hear from you more often .
God bless you and hubby 
Orangefatcat.