One other question for you because I saw you commented on another thread that you originally went to an Episcopalian church. Why did you decide to leave there and go to the Catholic church instead?
My attraction to the Episcopal Church was that (a) I loved C. S. Lewis and (b) I could worship like a Catholic without actually being Catholic! I didn't want to upset my mother unduly. Not being a JW was bad enough but being a Catholic was the worst thing I could have done in her eyes.
I like the Episcopal Church because of all of their focus on social justice. They do liturgy and music beautifully. However, I asked my bishop about the eucharist: is it really the body and blood of Christ or just a symbol? She told me that the ECUSA wouldn't define it one way or the other; it was whatever the believer wanted it to be.
That really bothered me. I thought that was too big a subject to be left to private interpretation. As I began to look more closely at their beliefs, I saw that a strong sense of relativism had crept into their beliefs. I don't believe that C. S. Lewis would recognize the Anglican Church of today.
I came across some writings about contraception. It had never been an issue to me. Then I discovered that all of the christian religions believed that contraception was immoral and a sin until the Episcopal Church's Lambeth Conference around 1930 decided to allow it. (The Conference had unequivocably condemned contraception in 1908 and 1920!) The other mainstream christian religions slowly followed suit. However, the Catholic Church never changed its teaching on contraception. I wondered why this was. When I spoke with a Catholic priest about it and brought up all of the arguments for contraception and asked why the Church didn't "modernize" its thinking on contraception, among other things, he told me that the Catholic Church doesn't make the rules; God makes the rules. The Church does not believe it has the authority to change the rules, regardless of popular opinion. To live in a modern age and find a church that said its beliefs were unchangeable because God had determined their beliefs really surprised me, in a very pleasant way. Most churches I know are willing to change rules on divorce, contraception, whatever, to ensure their members don't leave. The more I dug, the more I discovered that the Church was right about contraception. I appreciated their integrity.
This priest recommended I read G. K. Chesterton. I think it was What's Wrong with the World or it might have been Brave New Family. Chesterton was another Anglican who converted to Catholicism and made quite a few statements about contraception that seem to be prophetic in hindsight. Once you read Chesterton re: contraception, you can't go back.
It goes back to what I said previously. I want everything God wants to give me. The Episcopal Church, while beautiful, doesn't have the seven sacraments and doesn't believe itself that it has the true eucharist (per my bishop). Also, let's face it, the Anglican Church came about because Henry VIII wanted to divorce his wife and the pope wouldn't let him. Once again, it was close to Catholicism but was just an imitation, based upon the needs and whims of one man (Henry VIII). I know Henry VIII felt he needed a male heir but that's not a resounding reason for me to reject the Catholic Church. (Did you know Henry VIII wanted to be a Catholic priest and received the title "Defender of the Faith" from the pope?) The reality is that the Anglican Church was a shoot of the Catholic Church that splintered off for political reasons and has slowly but surely evolved into an entirely different institution. Once it became clear to me that the Episcopal Church had not remained orthodox to christian teaching but was much more interested in being a civic organization working toward social justice, I quit going. This whole process took about ten years.
I tried really hard not to be Catholic. I attended the Episcopal Church and then the Lutheran Church. After reading everything my Lutheran pastor gave me to read, I thought, "What's left to protest?" I couldn't find any questions or rifts that hadn't been sufficiently answered in the Catholic Church. I just couldn't stand it anymore. I could see no reason not to be Catholic. Family be damned, I had to be Catholic.
I talked with my husband about the fact that, in my musical evolution, my tastes have become more sophisticated to the point that now I can only tolerate classical music and jazz. My spiritual needs have become deeper and more complex to the point that now only the Catholic Church is deep enough and rich enough to fulfill them.
One of the things I've told my husband is that, as a JW, the theology is a mile wide and an inch deep. You can really, really know the faith relatively easily because it's so shallow. As a Catholic, with 2,000 years of serious scholarly writings to wade through, I fear I'll die without ever really knowing a tenth of all the Church has available to teach me!