Terry,
You are not and were not insane, imo (although I don't know you personally....). But, from what I have read of your
posts, it seems to me that you struggle with the idea that because you believed in Jehovah God and his invisible
spiritual kingdom, somehow you lacked rationality. Actually, I would say the boundary between the physical and non-physical
sounds more sane than calling it the visible and invisible.
I, too, no longer believe the teachings of JWs. However, I do believe there is a strong possiblity there exists a realm? dimension? non-space
existence? where an Intelligent Force or Consciousness accumulates, assimilates, analyzes, and distributes information. I think there may be a method not fully comprehended as yet,
by which this I.F. can be accessed. This is going to sound metaphysical, so it may turn you off. All I ask is that you give it some intelligent, non-biased,
non-religious, thought.
A few years ago, an individual described to me an experience. This individual has a genius IQ, so he is no dummy. I always considered him to
be the most rational pragmatic person I knew, so what he told me had complete validity for me. On a hike, he found himself pinned in on a narrow railroad crossing.
He wasn't expecting the train that approached to appear so quickly, and seemingly out of nowhere. He was trapped and he said he KNEW he was going to
be killed. (Needless to say, he wasn't, but he thought at that moment there was no out.) He said within a few seconds, his entire life felt like it was being uploaded (to ???)
and like a movie being rewound or fast-forwarded (I don't remember the direction he said it went) he caught glimpses of people and places and events passing by with incredible speed.
Now skeptics will say this was a function of the brain in panic mode. But, he said he was incredibly calm when he realized his death was imminent
and the sensation was that his Life was being uploaded. (Perhaps it was this calmness rather than panic that enabled him to consciously watch his experience.)
This true story makes me think that there may be an invisible (to the naked eye) consciousness that accumulates the data of one's Life. Maybe it's just certain people,
or maybe it's everyone. But, I think it is very possible. I'm not insane. This individual that experienced this phenomenon is not insane. Believing that there
is the possiblility of an invisible non-physical realm of consciousness is not insane. The stories that religion puts in that realm may be far-fetched to some degree, but the invisibility of a "field of
intelligent energy" (for lack of a better description) where one's Life's information is "uploaded" and/or stored does not seem the least bit insane to me.
I do believe Science will discover things unimaginable to us in this 21st century. The archaic stories that we still cling to religiously, may in fact morph into something
with scientific language to explain aspects of existence that we today have no language for.
I keep finding weird little things that pop up and I have to get rid of them.
You might consider what I've just posted one of those weird little things you have to get rid of. But, before you do, just think about it.
