I believe in God and Christ (haven't yet been able to believe that Christ IS God, but I also don't believe I know everything). I believe Christ gave up his life to redeem us all. What a gift!
I believe that I am to enjoy the life he has given me now, not sit around and waste it (what disrespect for God's gift of life!) in wait for some future life. I don't believe in the nobility of suffering, unless the suffering is truly helping someone else. The nobility is in the helping of others, not in the suffering itself.
And I have put my trust in God that whatever He does is what He does. I'm not "serving" Him for what he gives me. Whatever he chooses to do with me after I die, or before then, is completely up to Him. I 100% accept that and grovel on my knees in thankfulness for his giving me life to begin with. Who am I to expect more?
I believe that God hates a liar, so I need to live my life truthfully, which means I do not put my butt in a seat in order to be visible to others for what I'm doing. If people hate me for living my life truthfully, but I can make them like me if I live a lie ... I need to choose truth. For God's sake. I am the only one who stands before Him.
If I die and go to paradise, yay! If I die and go to heaven, yay! If I die and just stay dead, well I guess I won't know about it, will I? If I die and go to hell, oops! If I die and come back as a fly, well then I will just die and come back as something else eventually. If I die and come back in 100 years, cool! If I die and go to the Mother Ship, then I'll take back what I said about Scientology. (although I will have a few points to argue with them about!) My point is, I can't know for sure what's going to happen in the future, and it's presumptuous to think I can. So, I don't spend a lot of time stressing about it. If you were to press me on which way I lean, I guess I have to believe more in heaven.
What I *DO* believe firmly in my heart (due to abundant personal evidence), is that God still listens to my prayers. I can't be that bad of a person then, right? Or, more likely, I'm just a human being like all others, and God listens to all of us.