One of these days we're going to the beach together - I mean God we're only 20 minutes apart. As far as the WT and Wake - trash them!!!!!!
And as far as feeling like you're not helping anyone - you have to be comfortable w/ yourself first - you have to be at peace w/ who you are before you can start to make that journey - we all take different routes to it, so don't worry. You're a great person and probably help people more than you know!
Jeremiah