I was wondering if anyone had ever experienced a N.D.E. If not, does know anyone else who has had one? Has anyone ever felt that they were visited by a family member/loved one who had passed on?
I have read that some scientists theorize that N.D.E.'s are nothing supernatural, rather that they are brought on by chemical stimuli in the brain, and to changes in cerebral oxidization. Moreover, the phenomenon of N.D.E.'s are said to be culturally specific and culturally determined. That is to say that an Asian person who is Buddhist witl have a different kind of experience than a Christian European, or North/South American.
The reason why I ask is that about four years ago, I went into full cardiac arrest. I was officially pronounced "D.O.A." - dead on arrival at a hospital. The nurse who was with me in the ambulance performed C.P.R.
The thing is that I had no N.D.E., and yet I had been pronounced D.O.A.
I remember somehow driving myself on a motorcycle to the local hospital while literally taking what should have been my last dying gasps. I was on the verge of full cardiac arrest. I remember half stumbling, half crawling into the E.R. of the local hospital. I remember that strangely enough, the doctor gave me some kind of medication to stabalize and regulate my breathing. But I also remember being very, very tired despite having my breathing calmed.
I remember the doctor having me have a chest X-ray. The first one was not clear at all, so the doctor asked me to do a second. I told him that I was too tired, and asked him if I could do it the following day. He said: "Okay"
My last conscious thought was looking down at that little hospital gurney and saying to myself: "You are certainly going to sleep well tonight." In my eyes, that little, uncomfortable gurney seemed like a king-sized, quilted bed.
The next thing that I remember is waking up and seeing faces with hospital masks looking down at me. I had no idea where I was, for all I knew, it was hell. It turns out that I was in the I.C.U. of a different hospital, in a different city. Despite there being an I.C.U. in the first hospital, the decision had been made to transfer me via ambulance to another hospital about 30 or 40 minutes away.
I know for a fact that I was labelled DOA, because it says so in my records. I also know that for a period of time I was in a coma.
I "came to" or regained consciousness at the second hospital. They obviously had a way of knowing that I was on the brink of consciousness because there were four or five nurses looking down at me. It was quite a shock, let me say. Although covered by a blanket, I soon discovered that, under the blanket, I was totally naked. It seems that they have special scissors that can cut a person's clothes away in a few seconds. I never got those clothes back again.
The thing is this: It was "lights out" for me at one hopital, and "lights on" at totally different one. I know that there was a hospital tranfer via ambuance, and I know I had been in coma, but I don't know if it was a matter of hours or a matter of days. I don't think that it was more than a week, but I just not sure. Because I remember nothing from the period in between. I remember nothing of the ambulance transfer, nothing at all. My last conscious thought at that fiirst hospital was my idea that I was in for a nice sleep because I felt so damn tired.
I guess my question is: Why did I have no N.D.E.? Does anyone know of any "theories" regarding this? How "dead" does one have to be? Does full cardiac arrest qualify? Or do you have be in even worse shape?
I suppose that my case can be viewed as a good news/bad news one. The bad news is that I saw no tunnel of light. I did not feel the "warmth" of cosmic/divine love. I did not see loved ones who had passed.
The good news that I was offered no vision of lost souls doomed to Hell.
What I experienced was oblivion, nothingness, total lack of any cosciousness, a deep and dreamless sleep.
Does anyone have any ideas? Could it be that I did indeed have a "taste" of my ultimate fate? Could it be that certain people enter into oblivion. If that's the case, then I suppose that there is nothing to fear. After all, nothngness is nothing. It truly does not matter if a person spends five minutes or five aeons in such a condition of total uncosciousness. I mean, I would have preferred to see a tunnel of light, or even a prmrose path. But I guess that, as a "second prize" oblivion aint all that bad. It sure beats hell.
Speaking of hell, that is precisely the word to describe my stay in that hospital's I.C.U. Has anyone here ever been "intubated." In my case, after the heart attack, my lungs were only functioning at 65%-70%. That's not enough. So, they stuck one end of tube into a respirator, and they stuck the other end of the tube deep down into my throat, way past the "gag" reflex. It's really uncomfortable and no fun at all.