by ashitaka 24 Replies latest jw friends
Truthfully, I believe I am stable, but far from "normal" whatever that is. To put it another way, my abnormalities are in a stable state, that is, not getting any worse. Just a result of BORG life, as well as other things which should not befall a decent human being. I pretty much just see and live life from a slightly skewed perspective.
Boozy
Ok, true confession time.
I am painfully, boringly stable. No hang ups, no phobias, no depression, no long term recovery problems still hanging around from leaving the borg. Took me a couple years to totally get over having your entire belief system turned upside down, but I consider myself lucky that I wasn't born with a chemical imbalance or something similar. My heart goes out to those who suffer from it.
I work out my aggressions or recurring repressions by joking about SPANKING people.
think41self
Holy Flying Screaming Buddha, Batman!
Ashi,
I believe I am very stable and happy now compared to what I used to be.
When I was a witness I was a nervous wreck!
I had anxiety problems; I was also irritable and impatient with my kids. I was superstitious and afraid of Saten, the Demons, and the world. I was depressed and worried too much.
Would Jehovah save me at Armageddon?
What terrible persecution would me and my loved ones have to face? The unhealthy negative thoughts far out weighed the positive healthy ones.
I tended to over react to things that a person should be able to handle without letting it mess up their day.
My physical, mental, and emotional states have all vastly improved since leaving the organization.
I am actually happy to face each new day now.
I used to want to go to sleep and not wake up till the New Order.
Ranchette
Roses are red
Violets are blue
I'm schizophrenic
and so am I.
Gracias for the responses...for all those who are coping with issues right now, I know what you're feeling. I struggle every day with some kind of illness, I don't know what it is, though. I just don't want to know. I'm kind of afraid of a label, you know what I mean?
My father is Bi-Polar at least. He would start WW3, and ten minutes later would be laughing at something on TV. My mother would scream, "After all that just happened, you can find something FUNNY!!!!'
Wonder-Thanks for the post. What sort of therapy, meaning, what does the therapy consist of? Is it a normal therapy for a person your age...(I'm 22, so your age caught my eye).
Nicolas- as for the diabates, I understand that well....I am hypoglycemic, and man, I really lose my head when I don't eat....sometimes I shake like a leaf and my mind seems to spin with thought, although it happens at other times, too.
Six,-I can't understand if you don't tell me.....
Ranch-What helped you? I am very curious, because I am having similar problems. No real relaitonship probs, but just within myself.
To all those who are stable...THANK GOODNESS!!!! I hope you guys stay that way. It must be a nice way to live.
Any other peeps, feel free to jump in.
ashi
I might be stable, but that doesn't mean I was born in one.
COMF
Geez ashi! What a topic!
Am I stable? Depends on your criteria I guess. I've been quite mentally ill in my time but I was never legally non compos mentis. Are you stable if you're reacting to extreme stress under extreme conditions? Are you unstable if you don't realize your conditions are extremely stressful because it's the only way you've ever lived? Are you unstable when you have some paradigm shift after getting more information that causes you to re-evaluate everything you ever knew and felt and believed? Does 'stability' have anything to with how mentally ill you can become as a result of life's stresses?
While I was going through many of the changes, I worked, raised kids, served my community, had a social life. Then at one point the stresses piled up to the point where I could no longer function in many of those areas. I had to stop and work on learning to change the stressors and to deal with them more efficiently.
I didn't feel stable at that time. I still managed to cook, clean, tend my little son lovingly. Was that stable behavior?
Hmmm. I've shed a lot of words and little light haven't I? Sorry, I don't have 'an answer'. All I know is, stability is relative to your entire condition/experience/circumstance.
ANd am I stable now? Don't ask, don't tell!
Love and big hugs,
MD
Do a search on Joelbear and read my posts. I'll let you decide for yourself. :)
Joel
I believe you are stable , Joel; you're a clever man as well.
Also, MD, nice questions.....I've thought of a lot of those myself.
ashi
Ash,
Well cognitive therapy is a talk therapy, it just helps you change the way you think and percieve yourself. It helps me stay off the roller coaster of emotions that I use to be on. It is really just basic counseling. I think very normal for someone at any age. :)
