Will I ever be free?

Newborn

I've only been out since July and I fear I'll never get rid of hearing the WT voice at the back of my head.

For those of you who have been out for many years, do you feel you are totally free from them??

Thanks/newborn

wha happened?

eventually yes. I didn't notice how clear I was of the WT voices until one day when I was wondering the last time I had those pangs of guilt

Cheetos

I hear that bloody voice still and its been 14 years, I just say up your giggy.

LouBelle

NewBorn you are actually free right now!

Yes those voices go away.

You will be okay!

I recommend The Power of Now by Echart Tolle, followed up by A New Earth - You may enjoy the freedom acceptance brings.

penny2

Yes, Newborn. It's early days yet and you'll get through. There will be some milestones, like the first memorial missed, the first birthday celebrated. It will feel strange but you'll get there.

penny

BurnTheShips

I've only been out since July and I fear I'll never get rid of hearing the WT voice at the back of my head.
For those of you who have been out for many years, do you feel you are totally free from them??

It seems that I am. Still, July is pretty recent. What have you been doing to replace the WT reality you lived in with something else?

BTS

jaguarbass

I've been out since 83.

I dont know which watchtower voice you're talking about.

I dont have any doubt its not the truth.

But I have anger that I made stupid choices as a young man while I was a watchtower salesman.

I think that anger will be with me till the day I die.

Because you pay your whole life for stupid mistakes and decisions you make when you are young.

And I have anger that my mother made me go to those meetings my whole life as an infant and juvenile.

BurnTheShips

I've been out since 83.
I dont know which watchtower voice you're talking about.
I dont have any doubt its not the truth.
But I have anger that I made stupid choices as a young man while I was a watchtower salesman.
I think that anger will be with me till the day I die.
Because you pay your whole life for stupid mistakes and decisions you make when you are young.
And I have anger that my mother made me go to those meetings my whole life as an infant and juvenile.

Funny, that. I have not felt angry at all since leaving. At least I don't have regrets. Nor do I feel anger towards my parents. I guess we all make mistakes, it is part of being human.

BTS

Newborn

hi again

I don't doubt it's not the truth but I guess it's been to short time. I just still feel like someone is looking at me and judging me...scriptures pops up, you remember talks, comments etc etc.

I don't feel regret either, cause I can't change the past anyway. I don't recent my parents for bringing me up as a JW. They only did what they thought was best. However, they regret it a lot. They left 10yrs ago. Now I only have a sister left at Bethel who won't have any contact with me from now onBut we hope she'll come to her senses one day too.

I've not replace it with something else yet. I don't know what to believe in to be honest. I feel quite confused when it comes to different religions in general. Is there a god at all?? I feel I'll define my new faith as I go. I like the Buddhists philosophies but will never become one myself. I'm trying my best to enjoy life every day. I've friends, family and a job I love. Will follow my heart and do what I like, i.e. enjoy the FREEDOM

Thanks

Newborn

BurnTheShips

I don't feel regret either, cause I can't change the past anyway. I don't recent my parents for bringing me up as a JW. They only did what they thought was best. However, they regret it a lot. They left 10yrs ago.

Sounds like my own parents. They left 10 years ago too, and they seem to regret having raised me as a JW a lot more than I do. I've got an aunt that has pretty much written me off and is not having contact also. I have managed to keep communication with my in-laws that are still in however.

I've not replace it with something else yet. I don't know what to believe in to be honest. I feel quite confused when it comes to different religions in general. Is there a god at all?? I feel I'll define my new faith as I go. I like the Buddhists philosophies but will never become one myself. I'm trying my best to enjoy life every day. I've friends, family and a job I love. Will follow my heart and do what I like, i.e. enjoy the FREEDOM

Well, it is a big world, and there is truth and beauty in many places. Explore! Enjoy your freedom!

Cheers.

BTS

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