I Am ... Free (page 3)

beksbks

CoCo you've picked the perfect avatar. The vision and the words conjure the near perfect man

compound complex

Thanks, Flipper, for your kind offer. I do appreciate it. You're a good man!

What happens is that I take an actual event and embroider it into an "incident" that serves as a story theme. I injured my foot on a job in April and was off my feet long enough to understand pain and worry (about getting back to work). That occurrence bred two stories (kill it before it spreads!).

My only real limitation now is that my pocketbook cannot afford my dreams ...

That's why I write.

Thank you, dear beks!

You're always a source of kindness and encouragement!

I look and act perfect, but I'm rotten to the bone! LOL!

CoCo Darkside

beksbks

I look and act perfect, but I'm rotten to the bone! LOL!

Yum!! Even better!!!

compound complex

This is what started it all. It really happened ...

Any true sleep at this point in my life would be a welcomed and satisfying luxury.

Since my podiatric injury in the garden three weeks ago, I've hardly slept, given the pain attending the tear to my ligaments. What scant sleep I have managed has been inadequate. A fever of far too many days has wrung me out, but not to dry. I'm cooking in my own juices. Those few moments of suspended consciousness are insufficient to restore my battered frame. Likewise, pressing psychological needs are not being met due to these "circumstances beyond my control." Anxiety rules my personal roost.

Performing even the most normal of tasks is beyond me. Well, nearly so. I'm not exactly an invalid. My reason for remaining housebound the last several weeks, however, is scarcely invalid. I freely admit to an irrational and unpredictable state of mind. Did I mention behavior?

Already surfeited with hours of reading, I need a little excitement. The company of some fellow humans would be a nice change. Even if they are miniature and pay me no mind. I turn on the set (I think that's what I'm doing; I'm so absentminded lately) and settle down into my chair, putting my injured limb on the old naugahyde hassock. Looking at the screen - it takes a bit for the old box to warm up - I'm nonplussed, realizing there's not the usual image but a series of undulating lines. A total mishmash of unrecognizable symbols.

Painful as it is, I pry my sunken self out of the capacious armchair and make my way once again to the set. I'm reaching for the tuning knob ... an otherworldly voice - not that of any television personality I know - blares out in stentorian tones, "Do not attempt to adjust your television set ... we are in control."

Well, it's about time someone took charge. I hope I live so long to see the invention of remote control.

beksbks

You hurt your foot, ended up with a fever, and settled in to watch the Twilight Zone???

Tatiana

A most wonderful thread to read while I am up with insomnia. Thank you, CC.

compound complex

beks:

You hurt your foot (yes), ended up with a fever (well, it sure seemed like it), and settled in to watch the Twilight Zone (I think I zoned out, er, at that point)???

There is nothing wrong with your television set. Do not attempt to adjust the picture. We are controlling transmission. If we wish to make it louder, we will bring up the volume. If we wish to make it softer, we will tune it to a whisper. We will control the horizontal. We will control the vertical. We can roll the image, make it flutter. We can change the focus to a soft blur or sharpen it to crystal clarity. For the next hour, sit quietly and we will control all that you see and hear. We repeat, there is nothing wrong with your television set. You are about to participate in a great adventure. You are about to experience the awe and mystery which reaches from the inner mind to... The Outer Limits. — Opening narration – The Control Voice – 1960s

Tatiana:

Greetings to a fellow insomniac. I was sleepless only once - it has lasted my entire adult life! I rather like it, however (if I have nowhere to go the morn). Glad you enjoyed the tales.

Thanks much, lovely ladies!

CoCo

beksbks

Darnit, I couldn't remember if it was TZ or OL

compound complex

Dear beks:

It's OK; there are lovely web pages on both for more info.

I get confused sometimes, too, or most of the time, with brief moments of clarity, but actually, I really am in a fog more and more, except those times when I know what I'm doing, if you don't count when ...

Thanks.

CoCo

Bumble Bee

Being free is a wonderful feeling, isn't it CoCo?

I Am ... Free

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