When I first went on the internet, I was inactive but still believed it was the "troof". But I guess I must have had some nagging doubts inside me, in order to have allowed myself to be inactive. I remember the last year I was going door to door, I wasn't really that interested in converting anyone. If someone said they weren't interested, I'd wish them well without even trying to give a witness.
Anyway, when I first went on the internet, the first site I discovered was H20. But I soon realised it was "apostate" and didn't go back for a long time. I hung out at witnesses.net (witnet) and witnessesonline.net (WOL) as they were pro-witness sites. I enjoyed them, but realised I was with the more liberal thinkers. Some people would bring up points they had read about WT history, and this caused many a debate on the forums, even whether to allow such discussions on the sites! Especially witnet, as WOL was more paranoid and refused such open discussion.
Then one afternoon, I thought to myself, "what's all this about "apostate" sites? If they are really spreading lies, it will be easy to pick it". As a 3rd generation witness, and a family that had always been very strong in the "troof", I felt there was nothing I didn't know.
How wrong I was!
I think the most powerful sites were those that contained personal accounts. As I read them, I could relate to the situations and experiences many of these ones had encountered in their lives as witnesses. Plus there was the false prophecy. I had always been interested in the Bible's prophecies, yet to see the shakiness of the 607 doctrine was a real killer. Afterall, if 607 wasn't a real date, then there wasn't any meaning to 1914, and if 1914 wasn't a biblical date, then the FDS wasn't really chosen by God, and so forth.
I read COC. It confirmed all the things I had suspected but could never put my finger on.
Eventually I went back to H20. I lurked but rarely ever posted (under a different nik) because of the negativity that prevailed there. As well, Obed, the owner of witnet, allowed witnet to become more liberal, and lively discussions re the 607 date (curtesy of Uncle Onion), Ray Franz, Beth Sarim and other controversial issues took place. I enjoyed such discussions, as I was now familiar with info gleaned from "apostate" sites.
In December 2000, to the shock of many loyal posters, Obed closed down witnet. Where was I to go?
So on Dec 16 2000 I registered here on jw.com. The site was recommended as a replacement of witnet by a fellow witnet poster, who ultimately didn't stay because this site was "too apostate", LOL.
By this time I was well and truly inactive and a non-attender of meetings. I still got the occasional "shepherding visit" but said nothing regarding what I had learnt online.
Did the internet influence my leaving the WTS? It certainly wasn't the cause of my leaving, but it sure helped me in making the decision of leaving, and even how to leave gracefully. There are hundreds of personal sites out there by ex-witnesses, most of them I don't think I'll ever be able to find again. But sites such as Freeminds and AJWRB were extremely helpful, especially with their lack of bitterness in the dispensing of the information.