Hi all.
I just want to post here about my first sober Christmas. I posted here first of all about my alcoholism back in January. I tried to control drinking for around 3 years prior to this, but last December was a p**s up. Christmas week itself blended one day into the other. Then on January 3rd i had my final drink and went to Alcoholic's Anonomous for my first meeting. I would like to say that was my last drink, but it wasn't. Since then i tried on two different occasions to limit my drinking for night's out but it didn't work.
So finally on May 30th i resigned myself to the fact that i couldn't control my drinking and had my last drink. Since then i have lost my desire to have a drink and enjoy sobriety.
This Christmas is a funny one being sober. In all honesty it's just different, it isn't any better, it isn't any worse. I did think this time last year there is no way i can go through Christmas without a drink, it's easier than i thought. I went out on Saturday night to a nightclub with friends, bumped into lots of people i hadn't seen for a while, the Saturday before Christmas brings everyone in my home town out. It was funny seeing others drunk, yet i hadn't touched a drink and didn't want to. Some people were surprised and wondered how and why i would want to go through Christmas without a drink, i do not explain the situation to people, just that i prefer not to drink as i have drank heavily in the past.
So as for tomorrow i have brought some wine to give to my cousin at who's house i am going to. It was weird buying it, but it's all for gifts. One or two there will drink, but i ain't missing out. One things for sure i will miss out on the quality of life i now have, if i do take a drink, as for me one leads to another.
So from this sober guy, Merry Christmas!! I will be able to remember this one.
Paul
