I think those of us that really did try to make this thing work and whose faith was developed around these concepts have a very difficult time becoming "regular" people. Getting out of it wreaks havoc with your core being and you just have to work really hard to keep facing reality and not fall back under the theocratic spell we grew up with.
Hey there MostlyDead!! I saw your welcome thread, but didn't see you.
I can't necessarily say I tried to make this thing work. It just was, it was all there was.