by Newborn 11 Replies latest jw friends
Friends,
I feel so bitter right now that the WT & Co stole my best years...made me live with constant guilt, stay in a bad marriage, miss out of joy etc etc.
I just can't stop thinking abt it right now.
I feel my background makes me un-normal and that it's in some ways a handicap.
/Newborn
"I feel my background makes me un-normal and that it's in some ways a handicap."
This probably isn't quite the same as what you're feeling, but I can sort-of relate in that I've felt like when I meet "real" Christians (meaning not the WT-kind), I feel embarrassed about having been a JW, as if I came "through the back door" to reach Jesus.
I spent 59 years in the “truth” and regret the energy and resources devoted to a cult which has taken away the best of my years too!
I feel lucky, though, because I am finally out! I can’t imagine spending the rest of my life in there therefore I really feel lucky to have realized that the WT is NOT God’s Org.
You are still “young” Newborn, compared to the time I spent in there, so don’t be sad but rejoice of having finally been able to escape. You have still long years in front of you to enjoy life and do all the right things you never did because of the so called “Truth”.
All the best my friend.
Nick!
NewBorn,
Read carefully what Nick! has just said, You ARE young.
Nick! and I have spent nearly a whole lifetime battling with this horrible thing, Nick! appears to be completely out, I can't escape, as my wife is still a devoted active sister, my only escape is Sunday and Thursday during the meeting times when I can 'do my thing' as it were.
Try to forget the terrible things of the past and enjoy what time you may have left in/on this earth.
There are many on this forum who will give you any assistance you may need, you just have to ask.
fokyc
Regret Fokyc's situation. I don’t know how long you have been living this way, but it isn’t funny at all to live with someone with whom you cannot share your discoveries, questions, emotions and fears in relation to your faith.
Fortunately, our whole family, wife and kids, were able to escape about 4 years ago.
It was difficult, especially for my wife who continued for a while before realizing that the Org was not God’s Org. At the beginning she continued to go alone to meetings, but after a while realized that the “sisters” there were no real sisters nor friends, as no one ever approached her to ask “why your husband is not coming anymore”. The last hit was a TV program on cases of pedophilia in Sweden and how these were treated by the local elders and the branch office in Stockholm, supported by videos of reporters attempt to clarify the issue both with the local Swedish branch and the Head Quarters in N.Y.
This was the last argument which enabled her to see the Org under the right light.
I hope that you too one day or another can have the pleasure to see your whole family join you in your freed positions.
Nick!
we all feel the same
Newborn. You have a PM
Newborn, I totally understand. I felt seriously robbed and cried for weeks. It was baaaaaad! After about a year and a half I am finally starting to feel a little normal and realize that its not to late to live a normal, happy life.
Get busy living!!!!
You are not alone.
Yes, many of us feel the same way. But, think about the name you have chosen for yourself. You are not too old to go in another direction. How about your education? If you start now, you can have a college degree in a few short years, then many opportunities!!! You can go in a different direction with your job, having more opportunities!!!
Wish you the best!!!
