CURSE GOD AND DIE... (page 3)

hamsterbait

Losing the love of yuour life is by far the worst. At least you could have had comfort and support in your shitty situation.

Even knowing how many of us here have come to love and value you is not the same.

Honey you are strong. You will not just dry up and blow away.

I have a similar axe hanging over me at present. I go to bed quaking, and wake up with dread for the day ahead.

OXO Honey.

HB

wannaexit

OH Mary, so sorry for you. Just keep in mind, there will always be a brighter day. Hang in there

Mary

Thanks you guys.......It's funny, we say it's 'just the internet', but at times like this, my internet friends really come in handy.

This is really bad.....I can't remember the last time I ever felt this shitty and had so much piling up at once. I'm so down I'm even considering getting anti-depressants from my doctor-----something I swore I would never ever do. Robdar I will probably end up doing just what you said, but at this point, I really feel like doing just as the title I posted. As for the losing the love of my life, well, it's just that: I lost him. For reasons I won't go in to, but my heart just feels like it's been ripped to shreds. It's not his fault really, it's just the circumstances.

quietlyleaving

Mary, I'm so sorry you are going through all if this at once.

ql

cameo-d

I will be thinking of you, Mary.

You never know what is around the next corner...and when things are this bad....it's got to be better when you turn that corner. Don't give up. Tomorrow may hold a good surprise.

Cameo

moomanchu

Sorry about your situation, praying it gets better for you.

Read your JW info pack thoroughly thanks again for that.

Billy the Ex-Bethelite

Mary,

I'm so sorry to hear that things are not going well for you right now. Since I'm not at all qualified to provide help in any capacity (medical, financial, spiritual, or practical), I'll just start blabbing and maybe something will help... or amuse.

When I got out of Bethel, I realized that I'd wasted the best years of my life... and that we were heading for a serious recession. The local area was already crappy job-wise years ago... the rest of the world is just now catching up. Plenty of things have gone wrong for me. Anti-depressants have helped me some, they clear up some symptoms that come with clinical depression, but they have never "fixed" things. The biggest challenge for me with anti-depressants is that for the first few weeks, I seem to feel even crappier until the receptors start firing. Maybe that's just me. Most of the time, I've found that regular strenuous exercise helps to sweat out some of the gloom so I can sleep better and keep the endorphins flowing. The only problem is that when I go jogging, I keep spilling my Scotch on the Rocks.

Part of the psychology that has helped me is to not judge myself simply by what has happened to me or what is going on around me or by the things that I do/don't possess. Exposure to foreign cultures has helped me to appreciate how some people who have nothing, still manage to be content. Coming from a materialistic culture, I don't always understand that, but I am beginning to appreciate finding satisfaction in rather simple things... like really tearing apart just one paragraph in a Botchtower Study that Blondie has posted.

Let's see, what other worthless things can I contribute that I should keep to myself. Oh yeah... invest in canned food, bottled water, rural real estate, and semi-automatic firearms. It's the only sane solution.

B the S

jaguarbass

I'm sorry for you.

I have been through similar situations several times in the past 10 years.

It sucks.

I got through it.

Havent seen the silver lineing though.

I had the same job for 25 years then after the country was Bushwacked

I got fired, 3 times by dingbats, I wouldnt let shine my shoes.

I deffintely thought I was having a Job experience, so much so,

I am still pissed with God.

For your information, according to my experience, you dont die when you curse God.

You just get angrier.

Maybe you die like Adam and Eve after a long stew in your misery.

What I found by my experiences was there is not a God that answers my prayers.

All the time I was praying, I was talking to myself.

There may be a God.

I dont know how to fill out his job description.

On the good foot. I got the best job of my life at the end of the Ford Presidency.

Republicans always cause depressions,and economic hardship. I wish voting people would realize that.

Time heals all.

Suicide is a permanent soulution to a temporary problem.

Life is Good.

Satanus

You're a go getter. When you get through this aftermath, you'll go and get new stuff to replace the old stuff you lost.

S

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