Like I said, just shows how deep the cult-think goes. That "free ticket" business is scary, isn't it?
After leaving i had to mentally re-process my whole life. The day came when I came across my childrens old blood cards, and I had to admit to myself that I would have let my children die. I tore the cards into the tiniest pieces i could, I set them on fire, I stomped up and down on the ashes, all the time bawling my eyes out. That was a very bad day.
That's how effed up a cult can make you. It can make you actually believe that letting your child die is the most loving thing you can do.