Like reniaa said, this not a place to find religion, most notably JWism, but it is a place to indulge unbridled curiosity, unlike JWism.
Sorry to hear about your loss. From my understanding (gained here) the JWs bank on such circumstances to rope people back into their grip, playing upon the vulnerability such situations often bring.
There is much here that will give you comfort, much that will make you laugh, and much that will educate you. Enjoy yourself, and don't jump into anything without considerable thought and consideration first simply because you are feeling uncertain about some things. Use this time to explore and expand your view of life. If you just quickly return to the witnesses that inborn trait of exploration will be systematically stifled.
Lastly, welcome to the board.