I have to confess that I really wasn't. It wasn't that I was bad. I just didn't do all the things that were expected of me.
I remember being envious of those kids they would interview at meetings and assemblies; the ones who could stand up in front of all their classmates and talk about "the truth". My oldest sister was one of those kids. It was something I could never do, and I always felt like I wasn't good enough for that reason.
I hated standing out. Not just as a JW, but in general. I had a lot of insecurities, and being a witness only added to it. I always sat in the back, and I hated it when the teacher would call on me. My only objective throughout my high school years was to be invisible. For the most part I succeeded.