After I read Crises of Conscience I realized that the Truth as taught by the WTS wasn't the truth but fully expected to find another truth. After I read In Search of Chirstian Freedom it began to uncomfortably dawn on me that I would have to make my own truth.
Time and nature came to my rescue. I realized there are no fixed truths and that nature always has something on offer to look at, admire and surprise. I began to find this in people too. All this was missing from my restricting life as a JW.