realized you're not who you thought you were?
Where were you when you
by John Doe 70 Replies latest jw friends
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Robdar
Hmmm, never had that problem. I've always been pretty sure of who I am. Even when I am not me, I am still me.
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asilentone
I do not know.
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John Doe
You've never changed your mind about serious issues and world views?
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asilentone
very interesting question.
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AllTimeJeff
Gilead. That sucked to be honest with you. There isn't a lot of mental "air" there. But boy did I see I no longer belonged in the borg cube...
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John Doe
Was it an ephiphany ah hah moment, or a gradual shift?
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AllTimeJeff
I had an epiphany that my gradual shift in thinking suddenly came into focus...
That isn't meant to BS. Seriously, I had seen some bad things for years, and doctrines that my gut said was wrong. I saw behavior in elders, and occasionally in CO's that was disturbing. I saw naked political power plays.
When I saw it was actually institutionalized, and all of the "prophecies" the GB applied to themselves, that they believed that the bibles sole purpose was to prophesy about the existence of the WTBTS in the 20th century, I checked out in my head. I lost my identity as a JW, but woke up as a human.
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Scarred for life
I've thought a lot about this over the last year of being on this board. REading all the posts has really brought back a lot of memories that I had buried and really refused to examine at the time they occurred.
But my moment when I realized that I was not who I thought I was or what I was being taught to be was when I was in the 8th Grade. We were reading George Orwell's Animal Farm in Language Arts. STudying that book with my teacher Miss Tyson was an eye-opening experience to me. I never, ever looked at the JWs the same after that. It seemed so false and so controlling. I knew that I wanted something different. I stopped trusting my parents. I did not believe that they were teaching me the truth about life and I really didn't believe anymore that they had my best interests at heart. I was sort of on my own after that in my mind.
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John Doe
Would you say that the shift was as much a self perception change as an outer perception change?