Thank you for your kind replies...I am just back from the funeral service at a lovely swedish church. It was so moving to see so many people that loved this couple so much, I counted over a 100 wreaths and the people filled the church.
It was a glorious sunny day and the beautiful graveyard in the countryside where he is laid to rest was so peaceful.
I have cried more tears today than I can ever remember, the well must run dry, yet they are springing up again.
My friend the exwitness could understand me when I said I was also crying for myself too. I felt guilt that I had not known this lovely person long enough...guilt for my past way of thinking. Humility in seeing so many people heartbroken to loose our friend. All had their stories to tell of a man who went out of his way to make everyone feel happy around him. Yes I have learnt from this experience, I will never shun, avoid anyone ever again no matter who I loose as a result.
Thanks again for your love
Chicken little....a bit hoarse with the cheeps today because of crying