In my case, that means I was craving for difference as much as a "born-in" JW kid can crave for normalcy.
I was a born-in and I liked being different, at least by the time I was a teenager. I was never as pretty or charismatic as other kids, in or out of the dubs and I developed an attitude of "if you can't join them, beat them." My plan was to be the ultimate jw. Since I couldn't be as good as people in other areas I would just have to have the most approval from God. And I loved being special. Like Barnum said, any publicity is good publicity. Being singled out in school for not being able to participate in an activity was my bread and butter.