The Medical Pension is based on certified "right temporal lobe brain injury" (from a car crash I was in when I was 20), "very erratic sleep" (from what I understand to be damage to the sleep control at the base of my cerebellum), as well as "front parietal lobe malformation" and "multiple-chemical sensitivities" (due to one-month prematurity).
In addition, what I understand now to be a life-long case of Asperger's has been variously guessed medically as ADHD, labile mood disorder, panic attacks, anxiety disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, depression, and schizotypal personal disorder, depending on how the Asperger's was manifesting due to the circumstances and diagnostics used at the time. Medication was tried when I had depressive symptoms, but my eyes turned hard and the Head University psychiatrist at the time said that it was a precursor to glaucoma and blindness if not stopped in short order. So, I cannot be medicated, which I understand to be typical for someone with Asperger's.
I spend my time working computer programs such as here on JWN, e-mails, as well as family tree programs. Computer programming appears to be completely beyond me, although I have changed a lot of the use of my family tree program, and would have a lot more changed if I knew how to move it from being Visual FoxPro 7 to something like Unicode-compatible so it can accommodate Czech and Turkish, Russian and Greek, and even Arabic, Hebrew, and Sinograms, etc. Although my preference would be a modular composition system that could switch from one transliteration to another at the touch of a button. I just don't know how to implement my ideas for that.
I am safest at home with my home cooked meals, reference library, and the specialised chairs and bed I require. Sometimes my ideas must go on being written down for quite a few hours without a sleep break, other times I'm up only a couple of hours and need to sleep again already.
My personality cannot handle the detached group learning situation of a college or especially a university. I woud even benefit more if congregation meetings were down in writing like on JWN so that I could ask for the proper clarification.
Going into debt is now out of the question. I don't have faith in paying money back, when the money's not guaranteed.