Goodbye Reniaa,
All the best to you, may you find peace. And to help you find peace here is a short list of things to avoid:
1.) Independent Thinking. The Watchtower has explicitly said that this should be avoided at all costs, and if you wish to have a measure of peace in your new witness life, I suggest you take heed.
2.) Do not dwell on the fact that part of your donations to the Watchtower is being used to pay hush-money to victims of child rape. Also don’t think about some of those Watchtower donations being used at least in one case to pay for a defense lawyer of an already convicted child rapist directly by the Watchtower Society, defending him against further child rape charges.
If you just follow this advice you may have a measure a peace in your new or renewed Witness life. And if you can return to the Watchtower knowing about point #2, then God help you.
Freeman