Did you ever feel like this ..... not even close to being good enough ?
Always. I constantly felt that I could never be good enough so what's the point?
I think is picture makes the point ..what is the chance this will ever be good enough ?
Were You Always Feeling Guilty As A Witness?
by minimus 27 Replies latest jw friends
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caliber
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choosing life
Casper mentioned never feeling "refreshed". That is what I noticed when I left a meeting. I always felt like they were dragging me down or at least trying to.
The emphasis was always on the badness of people instead of the good.
It is similar to the use of "undeserved kindness" as opposed to "grace. One makes you feel worthless and the other lifts your spirits.
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blondie
I will say that people tried to make me feel guilty. I was determined not to let the varying opinions of humans determine my feelings about myself. Probably from the years of dealing with an emotionally abusive father and mother. But it did not make me popular or accepted by many. It is amazing I stayed in as long as I did.
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WTWizard
I felt more guilty for driving the opposite sex out of the "truth" than I ever did for not doing enough. Especially since I viewed that, once they start hounding me to do something, I could no longer do it and still have it actually count (if you do anything because you are hounded, you are no longer doing it sincerely and thus it does no good).
But eventually, instead of continuing to stay in and drive the whole opposite sex out, I decided it would be better for all involved if I simply quit whether it was the truth or not. For sure, if I would have stayed in and Armageddon did happen, and the whole opposite sex did all get destroyed, I would have felt guilty beyond what anyone on this board could imagine--and it would be forever, not just until destruction. At least by not doing anything, it would all end when I died.
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flipper
MINIMUS- Nope. I never felt guilty. Like Blondie said - I had many in the organization try to MAKE me feel guilty. But it's one reason I never fit in. I never bought into the thought that " we are so sinful and imperfect". I felt subconcsiously it was a scare tactic being used all along to keep us in line. I felt like I was a pretty good guy - and I actually resented them insinuating otherwise
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designs
One of the Fundamentalist's here said they deserved to be in Hell, their idea of it anyway, but were saved. Imagine as an adult or even a child sitting in a church being convinced of that, Hell fire, really.
Armageddon and the second death were the things we were clubbed with. Whatever happened to a kind and benevolent Supreme Being.
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asilentone
big YES!!!!
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minimus
I'm not a guilty type of person. My conscience was never properly "Trained".