A recent post displayed a letter written by a current Elder. It got me thinking about active JW's in general, and I am quite curious, in a genuine and sincere manner, how one deals with curiosity and sincere questions and/or concerns about the organization. In my experience, as with the people I grew up with who now are also out of the organization, we experienced extreme supression while inside. Suppression of thought and emotion. We all had quite extenuating circumstances that led to our exodus, e.g. 2 of us sustaining childhood sexual abuse, to an extreme degree, and one of us finally came out of the closet. But I truly wonder about the friends I lost, and others in general, who for the most part did not have traumatic experiences and now how they wrap their head around the organization.
Even a simple and genuine question of any teaching or directive from the FDS can and likely will be taken as a form of apostasy. It's a very fine line between meditation and faith strengthening, and stumbling with inclinations of dissention.
So I really wonder, how do you, as an active Witness and earnestly striving to serve Jehovah, internally process and deal with any questions as they arise? Do you allow yourself, even if only in your own mind, to really think about and objectively analyze things? Or perhaps you strive to strengthen your faith in the sense that even if at any moment you don't quite understand something you remain confident that in the end everything will work out?
Please don't this question in any kind of confrontational way, as that is not my intent.
Namaste