by highdose 8 Replies latest jw friends
i feel like i'm just begining to discover you i really am. all that JW borg style programing is falling away and whats left is someone who keeps surprising me. I'm alot happier in myself now, and alot more at ease. Discovering this person is going to be a real adventure...
have you discovered who you really are?
I'm still trying, but I think I like me!
"There was no mirror in paradise. The only way you could see yourself was through somebody else's eyes."
A JW friend told this to me, long time ago.
I'm still trying to find myself too.
You only get to know me in forum form. In person I'm passionate, can be hot headed, at times a lil "stupid", fun, I love to laugh, enjoy the quiet moments and am grounded. I know who I am and what I want out of life. I love being me.
LouBelle!
ever developing, that is a certainty!
i do note this: i still spend hours everyday
in study, but now it is genuine academic
pursuit with a means to an end.... no pun intended
i am happier, much more engaged in THIS ONE LIFE,
with a game plan that centers around burning out
rather than rusting out...
i thoroughly enjoy participating in the larger community,
am becoming a novice policy wonk in the issues that have
deepest significance in my life, i get to SLEEP, and i have
purged my wardrobe of everything JW, except the excellent
winter boots i got for service....
my kids love me, my husband and i have been able to stop
the efforts pretending the marriage might just work, and have
a friendly comfortable estrangement.....
basically, i stopped being stepford drone
it has been nothing short of brilliant!
Hi HD,
i feel like i'm just begining to discover you i really am. all that JW borg style programing is falling away and whats left is someone who keeps surprising me. I'm alot happier in myself now, and alot more at ease. Discovering this person is going to be a real adventure...
Amen!
Glad to hear you are doing well :)
Such a blessing to rid oneself of the WT junk that pollutes one at every level.
Blessings,
Stephen
highdose, that was exactly how I felt when I woke up about 10 years ago. It's a scary thing to look in a mirror and have no clue about the person who is looking back at you. It's a strange feeling, but at the same time its liberating because you get to start over in a sense.
