I'm in a relationship with a great girl...i'm so blesed with her. She calls me, cares...loves..never argues...always able to communicate. She is amazing. We rarely fight or disagree. But i'm freakng out. My ex hurt me REALLY bad. And Now that I have this amazing girl in my life...i feel like i'm going to push her away because of what my ex did to me.
I trusted my ex a lot...and she cheated on me. And it shattered my trust. Now I am in a relationship with such a GREAT girl that I can't find myself trusting her. I question her...and i panic and freak out in my head. I freak out so much if something seems out of place. She wants to have guy friends, and i said 'ok' ...(reluctantly) and...i'm freaking out everytime something little seems off...like she doesn't call me or doesn't do something. But she always explains what happened. She is extremely HONEST with me...she'll tell me things even I don't want to hear. Very lovingly. She'll confess embarssing things that normally a dishonest person would hide. She is extremely beautiful and gorgeous in her heart. Inmy dreams, she has golden hair (representing honor?). but everytime something small happens...It's like i'm FREAKING out in my head wondering 'she hasnt' called me, she's texting other guys...she's talking to her ex' etc.. I need help. People keep saying 'You have to trust her' ...and I know that's true. But telling me ride the bike isn't going to help me balance myself on it. I need HELP. Please.
I don't know where to turn. I feel like i'm loosing faith in our relationship because of the fact that she's going to get tired of me. I need help. I'm desperate. I really want help. I really do care for her and we both want to work this relationship out. I've tried doing research online for Free couples counseling ...or ANYTHING that will help with this situation. I really am seeking help on this form now...Can anyone...please help me find some sort of free relationship counseling that I may be able to go in myself by myself and get help. I'm not interestd in finding out WHY i'm so insecure and upset...i know why. I've been hurt in the past....I feel like i'm going to clutch her so much ...that she's going to leave because of the insecurity I'm having with her leaving me. I feel as though she's going to leave because of the insecurity of her leaving. Like I'm going to sufficate her and rob her of the freedom. I don't know what to do..i'm so panicing. Is there anyone kindenough to help save my relationship with this amazing girl? I've tried talking to her, and she understand why...but we both don't know HOW to fix this...we both want couples counseling...but i would like to do it alone, that way, i can say everything without feeling like ...she might see too much ugliness inmy heart and want to leave. I really want to clean myself ...and the inside from pain and ugliness...and i'm trying...but i'm ....i don't know what to do... Please is there anyone that can help find me counseling..free counseling...cause i'm broke.
My previous relationship was years ago, and though i'm not healed from it, i fear that it may never heal. This girl is amazing...first real relatipnship in YEARS. The response 'You're not ready for relationship' ...is not what I want to hear right now, primarily because of my girlfriend. of all my relatinships in the past, she is the most amazing one. The one i've been more affectionate with. Most tender, most, loving, most caring, most everything. I feel SO MUCH for her and I'm really TRUELY happy when I'm with her. She's also VERY happy with me. But my insecurities are REALLY getting in the way ...every so often... i feel like i'm CONSTANTLY looking for reasons to catch her cheating on me or something, even though i know it's an irrational fear. .......please anyone...i've never metanyone like her...and this is the best relationship i've ever had....i really don't want to push her away because of my insecurities.
I need counseling in Los angeles area. Anyone..