Why not ask an elder directly ?
This religion is a CULT ! YOU CANNOT ASK QUESTIONS ! YOU MUST ACCEPT EVERYTHING WITHOUT QUESTION !
I did this... my husband did this...my friends did this.... We were all the subject of a marking talk given in our congregation about apostasy. We were viewed with suspicion, ....people started to avoid us and treat us appallingly.....(all before we officially left). To ask the elders anything......outwith what the Slave says on a subject is a big risk... They used the questions my hubby asked them to form a judicial committee resulting in his disfellowshipping. He also privately went to speak to his fleshly brother, also an elder, who later on used that information against him, when he stood as a witness at his judicial and his appeal committee. This was a private conversation between two brothers !
The thing is, even though we were all from the same congregation, (ninja, passwordwordprotected and his wife, hoboken and myself), all of us, independantly from each other, had started to wake up and found ourselves questioning the teachings and policies. We never consulted with each other until it came to a point where we knew we were finding it difficult going to meetings etc. When I found out about PP and his wife...I was shocked, and I know they were equally surprised that we felt the same way. Ninja, had already been out about a year, and he was invaluable in providing us with much needed info....COC etc.
So, unless anyone who wakes up, wants to fade and keep contact with their family, I would say, dont even begin to bring your questions to the elders. They will be on your case....watching and listening...