Justice #22 - Legalism or Mercy? - THE END

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  • Amazing
    Amazing

    Justice #22 NEED FOR MERCY IN PLACE OF RIGID LEGALISM

    Intro: The account is mostly about two JW men, Brother Jay and Elder Dean. It is not as intense as other JW judicial situations, but it illustrates the common, almost everyday happenings among JWs and their continuing struggle between Pharisaic legalism and the need for compassion. Though I have several more Justice posts prepared, this will be last of the JW Justice Series, at least for the foreseeable future, and unlike previous Justice posts, it will contain more subjective commentary.

    Brother Jay Circa 1974 he had moved in from California as an MS. He was used to California JWs being more outgoing and holding large get-togethers. (That was the California JW culture at the time). He found the new congregation to be made of more homebodies, and less inclined to socialize. So, Brother Jay set out to try and reform this local problem as he saw it, and in so doing created angst among the core that made up the congregation establishment. He made some friends along the way who agreed with his views, and among these were Brother Dean and Brother and Sister Good. Brother Dean was at the time an MS himself, and about a year later was appointed to Elder.

    Brother Jay made his move motivated by family becoming JWs. Given the expectation of Armageddon in 1975, being with family in the organization meant a lot. Brother Jay was experiencing financial difficulty from the cost of the move, the economic conditions nationally and locally. He had been self-employed, and his business declined when he moved. He finally found that the only job he could immediately land resulted in lower income. It was a living, but times were very tight.

    Eventually, Brother Jay was forced into bankruptcy. This along with the struggle of a 3rd child being born, stress in the Congregation, long hours of travel to and from work, and mounting rift with the family he moved to be with, he became seriously depressed. His energy, career ambitions, and the never-ending cycle of living on the financial edge, was just too much.

    Mrs. Jay: She spotted Brother Jay’s depression, and searched for JW material that would prove helpful, but nothing was available that was truly worth sharing, so she found an article in Woman’s Day magazine that discussed the latest in medical and therapeutic understanding and advances. This included discussion of how to spot serious depression, and get help before it became a serious clinical problem requiring hospitalization.

    Brother Jay read this article, and realized that he was indeed suffering depression. He had some vacation time built up, and the company policy was use it or lose it. He opted to take the time since they had not had a vacation in years. The Jay family packed up the family into their little Toyota, and left the state for two weeks. He and his wife agreed that a change in scenery and time to think was vital to his recovery, and that this might lead to decisions that would improve their situation. During the trip, Brother and Sister Jay decided that he needed to find a new job for more income, and consider moving to a new area to get a fresh start. The vacation worked wonders for them both.

    Unknown to Brother Jay: While away, a couple of Elders learned of the vacation, and took exception because they felt that Brother Jay should stick around and pay his debt from the bankruptcy. The bankruptcy was for over $12,000, and the debt was already discharged. But his two-week vacation pay was under $500. Yet the Elders reasoned that no one should take vacation when they should pay bills first. They did not understand that $500 was not going to make a dent, and that creditors already demanded payment in full, which Brother Jay could not meet.

    Nevertheless, these Elders called a meeting to discuss removing and reproving Brother Jay for being financially reckless, and setting a bad example. This would also involve setting up a Judicial Committee. Bankruptcy, at the time, was frowned on by the Society, and became one of those aspects of life where Elders could, and often did make additional problems for JWs who suffered financial upsets.

    However, given that Brother Dean was now an Elder, he was able to get a majority of Elders to be patient, and consider all the circumstances, and allow brother Jay time. The rigid Elders felt they had all the information they needed, and insisted on a decision before Brother Jay could return. In this case, due to Elder Dean’s efforts, the decision was to leave Brother Jay alone, and allow him to recover from his depression.

    Upon his return, Brother Jay learned of what happened from Elder Dean and another Elder who agreed with Elder Dean.. While very appreciative, this would be among the first of many situations that would build up until Brother Jay one day left the organization.

    Brother Dean: He has his own demons to wrestle with. He was retired from the US Navy, and had a good retirement income. He also worked in the upholstery trade, and he became a master at it. He could take a piece of furniture, or car or boat seats that most people would toss away in a heartbeat, and transform it, as if by magic, into the most beautiful, up-to-date and useful item you could imagine. He did this with a broken down hide-a-bed for Brother Jay.

    Elder Dean developed some misgivings about the organization, and how it operates, but still accepted its premise regarding the Paradise Earth, and other related teachings. His wife suffered terribly from a serious illness that eventually took her life. Be he devoted his time and money to her care. And as a result he was belittled for being materialistic because he would buy expensive things, like a motor home, and take her traveling while she was still able. He greatly loved her, and wanted the best for her while they could be together.

    Some JWs even felt that he should be removed as an Elder because he received Navy retirement income. They felt that this income would be the same as a Sister who would receive retirement income from a whorehouse, like the Mustang Farm in Nevada. Fortunately, somehow, this action to remove Elder Dean never materialized, and he was left alone regarding his retirement income. Elder Dean also liked to get away and go deer hunting once a year. Some JWs strongly criticized this, but again, he was left alone because he was able to show from Watchtower magazines that it was allowed.

    This devoted man saw problems with the organization, and had many discussions about this with others. Yet, he chose to remain an Elder, feeling he could do good, and bring some sense of sanity to an otherwise legalistic and rigid congregation. He, like so many JW Elders in the same boat, saw this as a local or regional problem, and did not clearly see it as a total systemic problem of the organization from the top down.

    Were it not for Elder Dean and Sister Jay, and friends like Brother and Sister Good, it could have been very upsetting for Brother Jay to be removed as an MS, and this rejection and loss of validation could have tipped the scales pushing Brother Jay deeper into clinical depression. Thanks to Elder Dean and Sister Jay’s compassion and insight that did not happen. Brother Jay recovered from the depression, and became financially well off for many years thereafter. In fact, Brother Jay was able to go back to all of his creditors, and pay them off in full, offering interest and compensation for inflation. This resulting in reestablishing a good credit rating.

    The Watch Tower System: The above experience is not a headline making issue that condemns the JW system, but it illustrates the all-too-common events that many JWs face within the walls of Kingdom Halls – the ever present struggle between personal sanity and privacy verses submission to the whims of men who take an already bad set of religious policies and amplify their effects into something that is wholly unchristian, and at times, even uncivilized. Their mentality demands some legalistic version of perfection, with little compassion for gray areas, and the importance that mercy plays in any situation. Finances are among many issues that come under the scrutiny and intrusion by Elders into the private lives and personal decisions of JWs.

    Private sex practices, social and charitable clubs, businesses, travel, investing, charity, careers, legal matters, family and personal relationships, and many more activities part of normal everyday life have become virtual cannon fodder for the Governing Body to regulate, and for Elders to administer. Truly, none of this can honestly be found as Christian, and certainly, none of us should become our brother’s keeper in this regard.

    Being Christian, in spite of the Watch Tower religion: Many JWs, whether Elders, Pioneers, Brothers, Sisters, Publishers, have a sense of Christianity, and manage somehow to practice Christian living, not because of the organization, but in spite of it. This was the same mantra of Ray Franz in his book, Crisis of Conscience. These types of JWs are caught between two worlds, and each JW has to go with it until they reach a point in their life where they have done all they can do, and fantasy finally catches up to reality. That is, until they wake up and leave the religion. It is different for everyone involved. And certainly, as a kind lady on JWD recently stated in one of her posts, that we can never really judge the thoughts and motives of another human. Each has their own road to walk.

    In addition to the mercy shown by Brother Dean and Sister Jay, there were also Brother and Sister Good, who saw the same situation. They did not wrangle about whether Brother Jay spent his funds wisely, or forsook vacation to pay a bill. No, they saw a need, and on their own bought many groceries for the Jay family, as a way of taking the edge off of the financial pain. Brother Good, who later became an Elder, hired Brother Jay to do some work, so he could earn some extra needed money. Brother Good paid well, and in this way, Brother Jay could maintain some self-esteem, so necessary in combating depression.

    What if all the Elder Dean’s Walked Away from the Watch Tower?: This might be interesting were it to happen all at once, and with media attention. The resulting effects of living under the remaining hard-liners might prove to break the back of the Watch Tower religious corporation. But, in so doing, it might needlessly destroy many JWs on the edge. Who really knows? The reality is that the Elder Dean’s of the religion do not all have a common reform club they belong to where planning and contact can be made, so we may never really know what could come of a major walk-out. And reality is that each of these Elder Dean’s are in the making, and each have their own time and needs to deal with, so that it is not likely they would all reach the same conclusion and the same decisions at the same time. As the years go by, we will see more Elder Dean’s come into the religion, and eventually leave it. So maybe, as some kind of silver lining, the JW world is better off with some Elder Dean’s to keep at least some sanity, some sense of mercy, so that JWs passing through can breath a little. Maybe this is all we can expect for now. How can we judge this?

    Why does this account bring personal pain and appreciation for compassion?: Brother Dean’s wife died, and he eventually moved and remarried. His whereabouts is not known, or whether he stayed an Elder or is even still living. But he was always true to mercy. Brother and Sister Good, highly active JWs, he being an Elder and she Aux. Pioneering much of the time, finally had their own lives slammed against the wall, and they left the JWs a few years later. They maintained some contact with the Jay family, and eventually made full contact again with Brother and Sister Jay when left the organization a few years after the Good’s. They are friends to this day. You see, the reason that this story is so close to me, and affected me so personally, is that I am Brother Jay. – Amazing

  • Joyzabel
    Joyzabel

    OMG, you made me burst out crying.

    It was the subtle things in the congo that we seemed to always be "battleing" about. It's now from those subtle things that life is so sweet and rewarding when we don't have to battle anymore.

    Thank you for posting these justice series. They have certainly been soul searching accounts. j2bf

  • Flip
    Flip

    Pleased to me you Brother Jay.

    But I can’t help wonder that If fine, intelligent folk like your self and your beautiful wife, Brother & Sister Good and Brother & Sister Dean can get roped into letting the WTBTS lead you around by the nose, what hope for the rest of us.

    Wonderful series, ‘maz.

    Flip

  • outnfree
    outnfree

    (((((Amazing)))))

    There are compassionate and truly Christian JWs in all positions in the organization. I have tried to be one and I, too, have received the benefits of others' kindness and balance.

    This post gives (and I daresay is meant to give) insight into why you personally feel it is sometimes good for the merciful elders to stay inside the organization in an attempt to stay the hand of rigid, legalistic elders.

    What I never meant to do, and I don't think others really did, either, was to paint all elders with the same brush. I WAS NOT JUDGING THE ELDERS WHO CHOOSE TO STAY -- although I think the really merciful ones will finally find it impossible to do so. One can only witness so much distress and not become ill physically or in mental anguish for the INjustices perpetuated. THAT was my point in my other posts. That elders have an inside track on just how often INjustice rather than mercy prevails in judicial committees or during counseling sessions. And therefore, any righthearted elder will eventually be unable to stomach the unrighteous inequities in the system and, still having an unseared conscience, will make the break.

    YES, kind-hearted elders CAN make a difference in individual Witness lives. But meanwhile, they are causing holes in their own souls and the price is very costly personally. Is it worth it? If they have an agenda or personal circumstances that keep them in, maybe they can keep up appearances.

    I would say, "No." Besides owing mercy to themselves, they owe their congregations the example of displaying fearlessness in bucking the wicked Watchtower SYSTEM and exposing the deceit and corruption.

    Whom am I to say that they OWE their congregations? A congregant who, for years, humbly followed the direction of not only Brother Dean, but also Brother Rigid, Brother Disdainful, Brother Meek and others, my "God-given," "gifts in men."

    In my opinion, when any and all of these brothers discover that they have been deceived (and left hung out to dry, too!) by the SYSTEM, they owe it to others to snatch them out of the fires of deceit that will continue unabated until the Watchtower Society is publicly exposed for its error, wickedness, cunning and lack of simple humanity.

    Elders and former elders on this board actually bring information and insight that rank and file publishers would never know otherwise. Your Justice Series is a courageous and candid unveiling of judicial committees and how they function. It's much appreciated.

    outnfree

    When the truth is found to be lies
    and all the joy within you dies ...
    -- Darby Slick, Somebody to Love

  • TweetieBird
    TweetieBird

    Thank you Amazing for another great post. I do hope that you will continue as many on this board do appreciate them.

    I think each one of us here has to some degree experienced injustice from the elders, ministerial servants or even those considered spiritually strong. I know that I have. I think that it is all of the little injustices that cause us to at some point stop and think about whether or not we are truly in God's organization.

    One scripture my husband often quoted to me while I was still a believing dub was the one where Jesus said, "you will know my disciples by the love they have among themselves." After a while it hit me that there was no REAL love among the witnesses. Only a handful of people, IMHO, are truly loving. Maybe I live in the wrong part of the earth, but that has been my experience.

    Couple the lack of love with the immense hypocrisy and it doesn't take long to realize that something is seriously wrong. So, in reality, I guess we owe a big thank-you to all of the self-righteous, judgemental hyprocrites that have affected our lives, otherwise we would still be thinking that we had the truth.

  • TMS
    TMS

    Amazing:

    While echoing the gratitude others have expressed for your series, one tiny aspect of this segment struck a personal cord.

    Being blindsided by an elder or elders with agenda while away on a family vacation!

    At the risk of appearing paranoiac, it was my experience in 30+ years as an elder that subtle and not-so-subtle personal attacks or rearrangement of congregation responsibility, criticism of meeting schedules frequently were pushed through while we were on family vacation. My wife and I used to relax at a beach or camprground with the family and joke about what little shaftings we might be getting during our absence.

    This occurred too frequently to have been an illusion. My theory was that mean-spirited cowardly agendas were more easily implemented behind the back than face to face.

    TMS

  • Frenchy
    Frenchy

    Thank you for the post, Amazing. I can truly relate.

    TMS:
    For a while there were a couple of elders in my cong that seemed to be hell-bent on opposing everything that I tried to do in the congregation. In almost every case where we had an elders' meeting they had already made up their mind as to what they were going to push. More times than not they were able to sway the other two (reeds in the wind, if you know what I mean.)long before the meeting.

    I always manged to bring the other two back to reality but it was very frustrating to have to deal with this type of stuff.

  • JT
    JT

    Your post made me think of my wife and I

    we were the "IN" crowd and therefore we always tried to include the ones who felt out of the loop, reason being was when i was growing up my mom had 4 kids and dad was not a jw and WE KIDS GOT THE SHAFT

    we were never invited out sat night to the elders house- we only heard about it on sunday at the meetings

    my mom would get us 4 little black kids dressed and ready for service and we would meet with the group and the elders would say Sister single Parent you will be working with your 4kids in service to help train them-

    because i was the oldest i always ended up working with my sister and the here you have this black sister with 4 kids working the well to do white streets in NC
    talk about no encourgement

    so i decided if i ever made it to "Elder" i would never cut the single parents and fatherless kids bad

    so many times i would work by myself if a single parent came and the group was unbalanced-- i never wanted to see a pub have to work by themselves in service

    i gave lots of talks and we would invite the fatherless kids and mom to go with us when i gave talks out in other halls

    the kids always would tell my wife how "YOU ALL ARE THE FIRST EVER TO INVITE US"

    AS an elder you saw alot of guys who just had no biz being elders EVEN ACCORDING TO WT STANDARDS yet they were_

    after awhile you try to shield the bro and sisters esp those who are always getting the shaft- so i can understand why so many come here PISSED off at anyone called an elder YOU GOT REASON TO BE

    but there were so good decent guys who WERE elders

    it is like this the most loving and concerned elders reach a point where you realize you can't beat THEY SYSTEM and one must leave

    so wt to day is losing it's best and brightest and the only thing that will be left are the ones who will beat the poor jw to death with guilt and THE DO MORE DO MORE ROUTINE

    how sad

    james

  • FreeFallin
    FreeFallin

    Amazing,

    What a moving story. Thank you for posting it. I missed your other stories, but will look for them. I'm always a little surprised when I read of the doubledealing by elders. I used to think they were above that, and it was only "sister-born-in-the-truth-special-pioneer" who would stick it to you. Thank you again for the insight.

    Free

  • Julie
    Julie

    Hi Amazing,

    The thing I find interesting in this story is the initiative some elders showed in moving against this brother (you) while down on his luck. That's thing that gets me. What makes someone so petty and evil? Spiteful even. Truly a hateful sort of behavior. I take issue with such individuals and suspect they are full fledged members of the LDC.

    It is individuals like this that should have a heavy reckoning to make. I guess they pay their dues though in this is the only sort of thrill they'll ever know. Making others miserable. This has to be the epitome of evil, taking pleasure in the misery of others.

    No way you could ever convince me such folks truly believe they are doing God's work. No way.

    This is one of the things that I thought quite odd when I studied with the JWs. They criticized Catholicism (my religion at the time) for putting priests etc. between people and God and yet look at how many they put between people and their God. All these small minded elders and MS etc. doing "God's work" of judging others. Pathetically hypocritical and I am glad I saw it while just a study. I knew this was about as UN-holy behavior as it gets.

    Julie

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