Hi everyone,
A friend told me about this forum so I thought I'd check it out. I also post on JWR (Jehovah's Witness Recovery) as disillusioned. It seems this forum had someone with that name already so I added the number 1.
I was born into the JW religion. My mom was and still is a JW, as are most of her siblings. I went regularly until about 13 years ago. I didn't realize that I was fading at first. I was just discouraged and tired of trying to live up to their standards. However the more I missed the meetings the better I felt. There was always so much guilt because no matter what I did I never felt good enough. There was always so much more they wanted. After I stopped going the guilt went away. I'll never go back.
Anyway, there is a lot more to my story but I'll save it for another time. I'm going to do some reading of some of the topics here.