by highdose 24 Replies latest jw friends
I will probably never forget but volume has been turned down very low. I'm no longer consumed about the length of time I was duped (I knew it was a sham in '95 but wanted to prove I was faithful). Anyway, the idea of being a JW seems more and more foreign to me. Its hasn't been 'us' or 'we' for a long time but 'them','they' and 'those people'.
After living a "normal" life for about year, the whole JW thing definitely starts to fade to black (or at least dark gray).
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At times I do.
My life is so not about the JW's anymore. I go through life with it fading more and more from my memory.
I like that. But it took a very long time to get to that point.....
And set myself up to fall into that cancer again? Totally forgetting something means I would totally forget just how bad it really was--one more reason why I would never want to voluntarily go back into the cancer again.
Just put on The Who's 'Won't Be Fooled Again' and turn up the volume!!!!!......
Can I forget having a pedophile father?
Can I forget having an alcoholic mother?
There are worse things.
I know I couldn't forget it, and I'm pretty certain I wouldn't want to. It was an experience that took a number of years of my life to get through, and even though at the core of it all there was a lot of negatives, I did make a few friends that were worth keeping and that are truly wonderful. It also helped to make me the person I am. I am analytical, I can see a lot of alternate sides to matters as a result of the thought process that developed over the years that I was a Witness. I spoke to a Buddhist who told me that suffering is not the experiences of life, but how we react to them, because nobody likes change. We want to be stationary but life is anything but that. This led to her telling me that we are really nothing more than the culmination of all the experiences we have had and how we have reacted to them, up to this point in our lives. I am happy with who I am and that includes my history, a large portion of which was spent as a dub.
Don't see how anyone can forget. 33 years is too long fo someone to wake up and find out it was a BIG mistake to get involved. you lose so much and hope you live to see your kids and grandkids finally wake up.
I wish..
.................. ...OUTLAW
I just wanted to clarify something in my last post on this topic. I'm sure my brother remembers he was raised a Witness. But, it seems he has forgotten most of the teachings. He asked what we were doing for New Year's Eve, is just one of many examples. Maybe he's testing us, but I don't think so. He got the teaching of the resurrection mixed up with reincarnation somehow. So who knows. I myself would never forget, but I stayed in much longer than him and being a Witness has a much bigger impact on my life.
I don't think you can forget even if you wanted to.Being a JW effects your life forever more.Life decisions are made when your a witness,that you have to live with.The fact that so many are on this board years after,they can't forget.
