Hi Teel
I understand you. I sort of have the same feeling. I still believe in God, and that the Bible is God's word. I do read it now and then though. My problem is that when I read it and get to some well known verse, the JW training kicks in and reinterprets things for me. That is not a pleasant feeling.
I'm with you there..the JW training actually frightens me, I know that sounds daft and I can't really explain it but I don't want to keep "watchtowerizing" the scriptures but don't know how to be any different. The bible has always made me feel guilty anyway and I'm tired of being made to feel no good all the time. Your idea of a children's bible might help.