I have never been able to relate to JESUS. I found having a heavenly FATHER, however, most natural.
I can remember feeling the presence of Jehovah in my life. (Spooky, huh?)
In western civilization we just get a bellyfull of Jeezus this and Jeezus that. I tend to associate the very name "JESUS" with a southern drawl and a lacquered haircut and unctuous smile.
At my most fervent and productive JW mind-fugue I would "talk in my head" to Jehovah constantly. If this isn't mental instability I don't know what qualifies.
I view this whole thing as a very small world with sad, unfulfilled people afraid to really live their life clinging to a fairy tale and flexing imaginary muscles to make themselves feel bigger than they are.