My sister visited me a few months ago, and she was on a holy roller, 'save my soul' kick. She told me that I needed to get back to the meetings because Armageddon was so near. I told her that if I serve Jehovah, it will not be because I am afraid of dying at Armageddon, it will be because I love him and have a personal relationship with him. She says to me.... "Just do it for the wrong reasons then, it doesn't matter why you start to go back to the meetings, your reasons will change. I started going just because I was afraid of dying at Armageddon, and now I do it because I love Jehovah so much!"
It made me a little sick. After all, we were always taught at the meetings that Jehovah knows our hearts better than we know our own. If that is the case, it really doesn't matter how many meetings I go to, doesn't matter how many hours I spent in field service, or how many magazines I place. If it is not out of a pure heart, Jehovah is going to know,and it is not going to mean anything. It will all be for nothing. Which, I guess would not be a big deal, if meetings and feild service made me happy, but they do not, they make me miserable. They have all of my life. No matter how hard I tried, meetings and service were a real drag. I started to think that I must be wicked inside. That Jehovah didn't see me as worthy to get any joy from serving him. I auxhilliary pioneered for years. Still, no big joy, and peace, and happiness.
Anyway, my question is, has anyone used the "Armageddon is right around the corner, and you should come back so you don't die" reasoning on you? What was your reply, and how did you feel about it in relation to what you know about God?
